now you've just become like everything i'll never find again

"Gone are the golden days,
just a page in my diary...
Memories are following me like a shadow now.
I've seen your act
& I know all the facts.
I'm still in love with who I wish you were,
& I wish you were here."

This is a dead end, and there is no turning back.
Is it stupid of me to wonder about this? Am I living in the past?
Probably.

But when you know someone like that...
When your life is changed in four weeks...
When you finally get used to it...
and then its over,
& you just wanna hold on
as tight as you can
to a fleeting memory.

"Its been in the past for a while
I get a flash, & then I smile.
Am I crazy? I still miss you baby...
Where does the love go? I don't know
when its all said & done
How could I be losing you forever,
after all the time we spent together.
I have to know why I had to lose you.
Now you've just become like everything I'll never find again
at the bottom of the ocean.
In a dream you appeared, for a while you were here.
So I keep sleeping, just to keep you with me.
I'll draw a map, connect the dots
with all the memories that I've got;
what I'm missing, I'll keep reliving.
Where does the love go? I don't know
when its all said & done
How could I be losing you forever,
after all the time we spent together.
I have to know why I had to lose you.
Now you've just become like everything I'll never find again
at the bottom of the ocean...
You don't have to love me for me to ever understand.
Just know that of the time that we both had;
& I don't ever wanna see you sad- Be happy...
I'll be big enough for both of us to say,
'Be happy.'"