let the hurricane set in motion;

Oh hi.
So yeah I live in New York now. This is another dream come true that I can check off my nonexistant list I suppose!! It doesn't really feel complete yet though- probably because I am a vagrant sublet-er and have no real home of my own. Hopefully that is forthcoming within the next year or so though. My current sublet ends on June 1, so ... it would be cool if I knew where I was going after that.
But I love being here.
The only downside to where I live now is there is NO WIFI. SO basically I am forced to spend all my leisure time at Starbucks if I want to be on the internet. And thus I keep having to buy coffee, which is an annoying expense when I would much rather drink coffee while sitting on something comfy like a couch and watching Cake Boss instead of sitting on a wooden chair and listening to THE MOST ANNOYING soundtrack ever. This music is like old timey easy listening and it is driving me up the damn wall.

I do have a job now though, so that's cool. Well, I'm a temp. My temp agent's name is Stacey and she loves me. I just interviewed with them like last Tuesday or something, then Thursday I worked 9-5 for a one day fill in at this eco-friendly urban development place. Lots of men in expensive suits were there so that was a little intimidating and I was just like lol ok I am going to browse tumblr while I sort through this mail and occasionally  have to answer the phone. It was not bad though. I got the shit done that needed to get done and only felt a little bit like an awkward turtle.

Today I was told that I'll be starting another job this coming Tuesday, so that is good to hear. This one is a legit thing though- they want someone to stay around for like a year. ..Hopefully they will like me enough for that to be possible. Its doing "logistics" for this super high end jewelry company. Not the best pay but with that and maybe babysitting on the side I can deal.

..And its pretty damn good that I decided to let them submit my resume to it because this other place that I really REALLY wanted to work that was pretty much maybe going to hire me in a few weeks has just decided not to add the new position that I was going to have.. so yeah. Glad I didn't hold out on that.

I do still have a potential nonprofit opportunity which might present itself in the fall.. but we shall see. Who knows. My life is insanity.

Oh hey also today is the anniversary of my high school graduation and Stacy London's birthday. And also I attempted to buy pants in Soho today (several different stores) and it was a massive fail. They were either TOO wide leg, too high waist-ed, too tight, or too weird. Tomorrow I need to go to New York & Company or something- because I KNOW that the trousers there work for me. Goodness. Is there a Charlotte Russe in New York?? I have never seen one.. but I also need some regular non-work pants and know that theirs are good for me as well. Why am I having a conversation on this blog?

Nevertheless.
Pants.
Job.
Need a place to live.
Good Lord I want a frappuccino.

Ok well that is my life. Going to watch So You Think You Can Dance now.. :)

tie a knot and hang on;

I just really need to vent for a hot second.

My life is a shitbag.
A GIANT SHITBAG.

I have no job and therefore no income and therefore my most dreaded activity is checking my bank account and watching it slowly dwindle.

I also have nowhere to live as of June 1, and looking for places to live is all the more depressing because I HAVE NO FUCKING INCOME.

I am just so over it. Its not like I am not qualified to be employed- I totally am. I was interviewed for a KICKASS job at a KICKASS organization and the ONLY reason they didn't hire me is because they decided to just hire someone internally. I can do shit. Someone just needs to LET ME BE AN EMPLOYEE GOOD LORD.

FRUSTRATE.

surround me like a waterfall;

Well my phone is DEAD and I am sitting in a Starbucks so I thought now was as good a time as any to update this thing.

I am in NYC.. again. Had 3 interviews today, and went to look at a possible sublet for the end of this week till June 1 in Brooklyn.
Got hired at one place, but all the interviews went well so I'm going to wait to hear back before I decide where I want to work. One of the places needs a part time cashier which would be GREAT- I definitely want that if I can get a more full time-ish job somewhere I can make tips, or else I will have no money.
Oh and I am for sure taking the sublet.. its a little more than I'd want to ideally pay, but its a good location, nice place, utilities included, and will give me a chance to get started working and establish myself a little.

Things are looking up.

I got lost as hell on the subway today though.. You see, I have 7 interviews within 3 days, and I did not think the timing through as well as I should have... So after I went to that sublet today I got on the F train thinking I had to come to like 50something street but after riding the subway a couple stops I realize that I was headed to the COMPLETE WRONG PLACE. I was in reality supposed to go to 23rd street.. I am a disorganized fool. SO then I was like GAH WTF HOW DO I GET THERE so I had some issues and was totally late to my interview.
But the lady did not seem to mind, thank goodness.

Anyway, 2 interviews tomorrow.. one more Wednesday... so many things happening at once. Like trying to go to NC for the weekend to pick up more of my clothing and crap.. and looking at apartments to start in June with Tyler & Heather (my future roommates!) ..

Its just pretty kickass that my dream of living in NYC which I have had since age 12 is finally coming true. This is good. I must keep working. Still have to find an apartment for June and have to solidify employment and perhaps get involved in theatre stuff somewhere on the side... Need to network yo.

But its happening. This is a legit thing that is happening.
Holler.

you know I've got to go;

WELL hello again.

The phone interview happened and I think it went fine. I feel like the only thing holding me back from getting that job would be my lack of office experience.
HOWEVER. They won't even begin hiring people until 4-6 weeks from now...

So I spent yesterday afternoon applying to be a waitress at about 40 different restaurants, and now have 5 interviews scheduled from Monday-Wednesday of this week.
Hopefully I will get one of those jobs.. and I assume that if I do, they will want me to start asap, so I am also going to look at some sublet options while I am up there.

In other news, I have a lot to say about Amendment 1 (NC is a crap ass state).. but I feel that I will leave that to another entry. I just wanted to make a short update.

I am so ready to live in New York, and SO ready to get to this new stage in my life and not have to deal with various things that I have to deal with now or that I was dealing with in college.

"Iiiiiiii have to move ooonnnnnnn..." (Sondheim reference. Holler.)

falling all the time before I cross the finish line;

Well. Still freaking the hell out about job prospects. And my level of freaking out is increasing as time passes and job options fade away.
I spent all week last week in NYC and nothing beneficial happened.
I had an interview scheduled for this Thursday, which has now been cancelled because apparently they scheduled it without realizing that they are no longer hiring...?! Odd. But alright then.
I literally have ONE option left- and its kind of a long shot, before I have to start over again from square one in the application process...
The last thing I want to do is start this process over. Especially since it has been going on for 2 months now... I am completely over it, I just want a damn job.

Phone interview/"chat" tomorrow.
This is my last chance.
I AM SO TERRIFIED.
Please be thinking of me and sending good thoughts and vibes and prayers my way for this...

If it goes well, then I will have a chance at a dream coming true (literally).. TWO dreams actually. One because it would allow me to live in NYC, and the other because of what the job is.

If it does not go well... then I will be at a dead end. And that terrifies me to no end.

Jesus take the wheel. Seriously.

Oh yeah and several other things are happening in my life right now which suck and are complicated and that is not helping one bit.
This has been a complain-y slash overwhelmed entry.

ever in your favor;

It occurred to me as I was sitting in Central Park a while ago that I haven't blogged in what feels like a long time.. although it probably hasn't been that long.

 Tra-la, its May.
And yes, I am in NYC again.

I got a call from a possible job last week, like Wednesday or Thursday, and I was so stoked and they said they'd call me Monday (yesterday) for an interview that would happen either today or tomorrow...

AND of course they have yet to call. '
I called them today, but had to leave a message, so who knows what is going to happen with that.

I am also waiting for an email from a lady from another possible job, but I don't even have her email address, so I can't contact her (and I feel like I've been enough of an incessant bother to these people already so I am trying to be patient and realize that they are busy) .... The waiting game sucks though.

I am trying to just keep calm and read The Hunger Games though... which I am pretty obsessed with. I read the first book throughout the 2nd leg of my bus ride up here and then finished it yesterday while hanging out at Chelsea Piers.
Bought the 2nd one today, and between Union Square and Central Park, I am already close to 200 pages in.
SO GOOD.

Other than that, there is really not a lot happening in my life.

I got a discount ticket for this show called Peter and the Starcatcher online, so I'm going to see that tonight.. Cassandra liked it a lot, so I am sure I will too.
Tomorrow I am supposed to get together with Jordi in the evening, and then Thursday I might student rush something.
Then Friday I guess I will head back to NC unless something magical happens and a job appears in my life. BUT I do have Jamie's bridal shower on Saturday, so that is a thing that I have to be at.

So, still, I remain in a state of flux.
I need Stacy London to make an appearance somewhere. That would be a fun distraction. haha. ALSO I have a present for her from Poland which I didn't give her last time I saw her because I didn't know I was going to see her and thus did not have it with me.
This time, its in my purse just in case there is a random tweet like OH HEY RANDOM BOOK EVENT TONIGHT. haha.
Oh how I wish there were a random book event.
Left to my own devices, I basically wander around, wait for my phone to ring, drink coffee and read.
Its not a bad way to spend time, but its a little silly.

...I am hungry again. WHY. I ate a whole burrito today. Maybe I'll get something to remedy that.
:)