stuck on this same song;

My life has morphed from an awesome traveling adventure into a sad, pathetic game of sitting around in my parents' house checking my email every 5 minutes hoping beyond hope to hear back about a job.. ANY JOB. This is no longer cute. I am strongly considering doing bartending school next week, but just my luck I'll pay the money to do it and then like one day of it will happen and THEN someone will want me to come in for an interview. Idk yo. I might just do it and be like WELL I AM STUCK IN NC. I was originally considering just going up to NYC for a week to do bartending school there, just so I'd be there if indeed an interview were to present itself... but its a LOT more expensive up there, and I cannot afford it so. Yeah. I guess if I miss a day or 2 of it I could make it up.. I don't see why that would be an issue.. But in either case. I am not sure what to do. I just really need some sort of activity to take up the time in between my incessant email checking ... I am working on a crafty project and trying to make myself play the ukulele but I just get so preoccupied/overwhelmed and feel like I HAVE TO BE DOING SOMETHING THAT IS LEGITIMATELY PRODUCTIVE TO MY FUTURE AT ALL TIMES and yeah. I am going mad. Ever since I got back from Europe I am unable to sit still. I did get very generously recommended to this non-profit which I would LOVE to work at, but it turned out that they have no openings, which is a bit disappointing but understandable of course. So then my name was passed along to this other organization which I would be THRILLED to work at.. and since this is pretty much my only full time option left on the table, I am very anxious to hear from them and see what happens. And this may have been uncouth of me but I emailed them yesterday just to be like heyyyyy so I think you guys received my name & resume and uhh I was just wondering what was up with that and wanted to express my enthusiasm for your organization and the possibility of working here. It was in better words than that of course.. (Was that uncouth of me??) I mean, I was told several days ago that they'd be contacting me.. and frankly I am just ANXIOUS and need to know what is happening. I wasn't even sure where to send the email though so like, who knows if the correct person is going to get it. Maybe I'll try to buy pants today. I do need some nice pants and a pencil skirt or 2. "Dress for the job you want," as Stacy would say. I have gone ahead and applied for lots of part time jobs like waitressing and retail and the like. And I have 2 potential interviews.. one is on STATEN ISLAND though and that is just ridiculous. The other is a retail store in Manhattan... but of course the job is part time. I have done lots of math to try & figure out if I could survive on something like that at 40 hours a week with bartending like 10 hours a week.. and I cannot. I would need to bartend like 20 hours a week and be like some sort of junior manager or shift supervisor or something in order to have enough money to live. Or I suppose I could just bartend like 40 hours a week. That might work out. BUT HONESTLY I just want this thing I was recommended for to work out because I WANT IT and I have PASSION and it would be KICKASS even if all I do is answer phones and file papers all day. So basically, my life is a jumble of ridiculum right now. I hope this phase is over soon. =/ I just want a job, an apartment, a stable life, and a scruffy dog. Why are these things so hard to get?