dwell in possibility;

I am at the point now where I just need to dive in and make this New York thing happen no matter what job I get. Today, I've applied to LOTS of different retail & waitressing jobs, and hopefully those are things I might hear back about faster and be more easily able to get based on my experience in both food service & retail.. I don't care if I have to get 2 jobs. I just need this to happen.

I don't know if I'll be living alone or with people or what is happening with that, but if they beat me there or if I beat them there then I guess I will live alone and that will be fine with me. I just want to BE THERE.

I also found this ADORABLE studio which I could potentially afford in Brooklyn (as well as other options) so again, if I live alone at least I know of the type of things I could get.

Also, if I live alone, I might get a small dog so that I will feel a bit safer.. I get freaked out at the slightest noises when I am by myself. lol.

Anyway, I am determined to get this shit together so I can start my real grown-up life.

As Stacy would say, I am trying to "dwell in possibility."
Even if I ALWAYS have to claw my way out of a wooden crate to make things happen for myself, I can do that. This is going to happen.

...now I just need a job so I can figure out *when* ...