sit back down where you belong;

I need to learn to live my life to the fullest while I have the chance. I learned that lesson even more so today than I had before..
Yesterday I basically gave up on making it to NYC before Christmas to see The People's Court.. and I am 100% sure that everyone reading this is like lol wtf who gives a shit about a court show. But its not the SHOW that I love, its the Judge. More about that later.
TODAY, I was laying around like always, and I got a call from a 212 number.. I was like uhh ok what is this so I answered it in a haze, as the phone had awoken me from a nap. It was a lady from People's Court, telling me that there are tickets available for the week of November 15.
Now, I emailed about tickets about a month and a half ago. WHO GETS A RESPONSE to anything after that long. I was pretty surprised that I did.
And this may sound silly to you, but I am taking this as a sign that I should take that trip. Yes its yet another financial strain I'm putting on myself, but I work really hard every day, and I think I can make this work.
I need to become more of a risk taker, and stop fearing the future. I need to live life to the fullest and follow my dreams NOW. Because if not, it may never happen.
That has been the lesson of the day.
Now, more about that judge I love..
Judge Marilyn Milian has been a massive inspiration in my life, as I have been watching her preside over her courtroom since I was in 5th grade. I saw how knowledgeable, clever, wise, compassionate, confident, and FIERCE she is, and I wanted to both BE HER and know her at the same time. And I still feel that way. I have always been easily inspired by/infatuated with people, but there are a few who have shaped me into who I am today, and one of those people is Marilyn Milian... (the others are Susan Powell (though she was a friend of mine), Stacy London, Oprah, and Jurga, my boss at work). But that is really all. I love a LOT of people, but these are the ones who have REALLY shaped me into who I am, whether they know it or not, and gave me strong role models who I can look up to and strive to be more like.

Anyway, I am NYC bound in just a couple weeks!! Eek!! :D