I feel like I either need a pet or a boyfriend to keep me occupied. All I've focused on is myself lately.. I mean, not in a vain way.. in a weird way. I find myself alone a lot more than I usually am. When I'm home all I want to do is be in my room & chill & watch tv shows online. And I like it. I like my alone time, which is weird, because I thrive on other people... idk. But I want a companion. And since a boyfriend isn't something that can just happen at the drop of a hat, I went in search of a pet.
I wanted a hedgehog originally, but the only place you can get them is from a breeder, and they're mofo expensive. Like $200. So uh.. no thanks. So then I hopped on craigslist and was looking for other low maintenance pets... and I ran across this bunny.
Now, if you know me, you know that I have always wanted a bunny. Like, always. And this one seemed PERFECT. It was rescued by this lady who recently lost her bunny she had for quite some time, and since this bunny reminds her of the one that died, she doesn't want to keep it. (From the emails this lady seems like a really sweet, loving pet owner.) Anyway, it is SO CUTE, it hops around the lady's house and doesn't chew on things, it COMES WHEN YOU CALL IT, and it has papilloma (in humans that's HPV (an STD) but obvs you can't get such a disease from a rabbit..) which doesn't require any extra care now, but if it gets worse it may in the future. ANYWAY I adore this bunny already and I really want it.
My only obstacle at this point is my lease. I need to find out what the pet fee is (or if there is one for a 'caged' animal even though it will only be caged like 35% of the time) and stuff like that. I am calling them tomorrow, fosho.
Please guys, if you think of it, pray that either I can get this bunny or that it can find the best home possible! It needs someone who will really care for it and is willing to deal with its potential health problems.
In other news, I've become re-addicted to The Gilmore Girls, and have decided to re-watch the entire series. I love that show because I LOVEE the Lorelai-Rory dynamic and Lauren Graham is just amazing. I have always wanted a Lorelai in my life. Its not that I want my mom to be like her, its I guess that I've always needed/wanted a big sister figure in my life. Someone older and wiser who would help me learn things without being a know it all about it, who I could trust with everything and who would eat junk food with me and watch movies with me all the time... Someone who I could call at 3am and they'd come right over with booze & chocolate & who would cuddle with me until I felt better. I've never had that, and to my own dismay I have looked for it in many of the wrong places. And much emotional trauma has resulted from this. ANYWAY, I love the Gilmores. LOVE them.
You know, I was watching this new talk show (called, appropriately, The Talk) over break and they were discussing their sister relationships. And I realized how much I would have loved having a big sister. I've never known what it feels like to be the young one who is looked out for.. I am always the older one who looks out for everyone else it seems. Anyway, that's my baggage..some of it that is. What's yours?
Oh, in other odd personal news, I've realized that I depend very little on my friends nowadays, and mostly just on myself. I hate asking people for help, so I just like.. get things taken care of on my own no matter what (even if I have to whine to my mom about it over the phone)... idk what that means for me. Its weird how I've kind of just.. let communication deplete with so many people. But I've gotten to the point where I just let go. I don't chase after people, so I will end up just kind of slipping away if I don't feel needed or wanted. I'm not close to very many people anymore. Its weird. I don't know what to think about it.
All the more reason to get a bunny.
This week is going to be very hectic and hellish and I will not get much of that alone time I've come to depend on so much.. guh.
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