one and lonely

I would please like to complain for just a little while.

I have to write a paper,

and no, this is not the complaint.

Paper writing is like a constant thing around here.

But like..

I have to summarize an entire semester's worth of information in very little space and I do not even know where to begin. I am being such a lazy ass and using every way possible to procrastinate and then feeling guilty about it.

This sucks.

Also, since I live in a dorm community that requires me to attend events and I have not been able to attend enough thanks to REHEARSALS AND PERFORMANCES, I will probably be put on probation. guh. I don't even know what all that will mean but I'm sure it will not be too fun.

Additionally

people are weird.

I am weird.

And together that enlists failure wherever I go.

I feel like this might be one of those "i love you but i don't LIKE you'' type deals... guh. I hate that.

I think that people who don't like me should just go ahead and be bitches to me

this would make my life easier

because I would then, thus,

not have to deal with them directly.

that probably is nonsense.

whatever.

this is a blog and my layout is lady gaga and Lord knows she is nonsense.

buhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

perhaps i would just prefer to be INVITED to hang out and such instead of expected to have nothing better to do and follow you around everywhere.

i mean

i dont have anything better to do

but

...

i wasnt invited.

thanks for that.

alright, perhaps I will really attempt to work on this blasted paper now..