i will wait for you;

I absolutely love living in NYC.

There is nothing more New York to me than walking through a park wearing adorable winter accessories and casually sipping a latte from a holiday Starbucks cup. There's something about the brisk fall air that makes me feel so alive and so happy to be here in the city of my dreams.

I've lived here for 5 and a half months now, and one one hand it seems like it has been forever.. but on the other it seems like that time has gone by in the blink of an eye.

I am trying to start to get my life together.. I am on a lease now which is quite good and I have a job but soon (very soon actually) I will need a new one. And I have some AMAZING people in my life.

I am so much happier here.

My last few months in NC I was pretty down in the dumps.. pretty bored, frankly. I didn't really have anyone to hang out with there outside of work... at least no one who was free on a regular basis. And then Europe was absolutely incredible.. but I was still pretty alone through all that. My Polish family was so kind but there was only so many ways in which they were able to support me and only so many things I could or would tell them.

When I first moved here I was pretty much a hot mess (and still am on many counts), but now I am just so much better. I am better at being a grown up, more mature, more zestful and thankful. Its just a good life. And now my goal is to figure out what the hell my career should really be and work on chasing after it. And just to keep growing, being present, and being thankful.

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"I’d known since I was 5, when my parents forced me to move to California, that I was going to live in New York eventually and that everything in between was just a horrible intermission. I’d spent those sixteen years imagining what New York was going to be like. I thought it was going to be the most exciting, magical, fraught-with-possibility place that you could ever live in; a place where if you really wanted something, you might be able to get it; a place where I’d be surrounded by people I was dying to be with. And I turned out to be right." -Nora Ephron