so shake him off;

I am getting kind of emotional right now..
This has come out of nowhere.

I've been corresponding with a friend from high school about being roommates in NYC starting in just a couple months. And I've been applying to jobs like a MOFO.

...And just now I started looking at apartment listings to get an idea of my budget.

And then I got terrified.

I honestly have no idea how people (my age people that is who haven't had super real jobs yet) are able to afford this crap. I mean, its one thing if you have 3 or 4 people living in a one bedroom, but like.. holy cow bro. I might as well just pitch a tent in Central Park because that will be all I can afford.
Its not like the prices there are news to me, I guess its just the fact that this is SO CLOSE to being real... up till this point it has been this distant dream. Now its happening. We are planning it for real.
I'm worried that I won't find a good job or that I'll get fired within one week or something and then I won't be able to afford anything and I really just want to live in fucking NYC for God's sake WHY IS THIS SO HARD.

Sigh.

I mean.
Ok.
Somehow I legitimately have to be able to afford like up to $1000 in rent EACH MONTH. That is a lot. That is 12,000 a year.

... maybe I should create some sort of projected budget.. like estimate what utilities will cost on top of that.. then what I'll be spending on other things.. then what I will need to be earning after taxes in order to not die or be homeless.

How do people do this right out of college?
My mind is blown.
And I am flipping terrified.