I am currently really exhausted and finding myself completely perturbed by the fact that photobucket is not cooperating with what I want to do, and I have NO IDEA how to use damn Gimp. I am a really dumb person apparently, for not being able to fuse 2 photos together, but whatever. Its true life. My whole need to fuse these photos together is because, you see, there are so many cool body positive blogs on tumblr that people are awesome and submit pictures of themselves to and they're all like.. hey look at me I am overweight/curvy and I am hot. And I wanted to do that... SO I DID. With one photo, not fused or cropped or anything. ... But that was like almost a week ago and the picture has not been posted. I check that blog like, more than once a day to see if its there.. because frankly, I think it would be a little bit cool to have my face posted on the blog of someone who is slightly tumblr famous. But. No such luck. And its kind of making me insecure. Like, its possible that there are just so many submissions that they haven't gotten to mine yet, ... or maybe they don't accept them all because there are so many? But either way, its like.. kinda sad. Tumblr has rejected me.
And now I am weirdly relapsing into not liking the way I look. I had low self esteem all throughout my life, ever since that dumbass kid in kindergarten told me I was fat.. and then when my DOCTOR said I was fat when I was TEN YEARS OLD.. -___-
I got confident the summer before junior year when I started watching What not to Wear all the time and Stacy London taught me to love myself. And I did... and I guess I do still. I don't know. My body and I have our ups and downs. Down is where I currently am I guess.
Not much else is happening. Work, and living with Erin... I can't really complain. :)
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