baby, remember me once more;

I want you to know me but I'm afraid you don't care who I am.
I want to tell you things but I'm afraid you won't support me.
I need your support and your approval.
I know you don't mean to hurt me but you do.

Anyway.
Real words.

I am starting to be more ok with my second job.. I am starting to get to know the people better and kind of know how things go now, so its better in that regard. But the epic exhaustion continues. AND the other night they kept me past 10 when I was supposed to get off at 9. I had an extension till 9:30, which was FINE.. but then I was still there when it was past 10. Not okay when I had to be awake again at 4am.
I am thankful that I have these 2 jobs though, because the extra money is super helpful. And like I said, I don't mind BEING at this other job or doing the things it requires of me. Its just a big stress with the hours I am keeping.

My Italian family is on vacation, so I haven't spoken to them since I last wrote, but I am think they'll be back in a few days so I am sure I will hear from them then. I can't wait to get the ball rolling on all this. I am stoked for January.

Also, I am in Wilmington right now. I got here yesterday and Jamie and Matthew and I got AMAZING JAPANESE FOOD for dinner, and then we went and took a very long walk in the darkness on the beach will cell phones lighting our way... and then we went to Cookout for milkshakes. It was a good time. Jamie is at work now, so I am just sitting here watching tv and interneting till she gets back.. and then I will make her take me to cool places. :)

I AM HUNGRY THOUGH and there is no food here except oatmeal. lol. Jamie will probably be here in like an hour though, and then food and activities will happen.
OH SHIT DOCTOR WHO IS ON. BLAAAH. BILLIE PIPER AND DAVID TENNANT MY HEART IS SOARING.