you are the best thing that's ever been mine;

You know, sometimes I am a really stupid idiot.
Sometimes I am a really really sucky friend.
Sometimes distance causes me to forget how much people mean to me.

Well, if I have anything to say about it, my sucky era ends now.

I want you to know how sorry I am for forgetting how much I love you.
I want you to know how sorry I am for forgetting how wise you were and how I was just maneuvering for my own personal gain and trying not to be a villain.
I want you to know how sorry I am for neglecting your interests and ignoring the things that meant most to you.

Here's what I know now.
I know that what we have is amazing. I know that you are the best thing that's ever been mine and I have screwed that up more than once and I hope with every fiber of my being that that never happens again. And even if the things you're interested aren't the things I am interested in, I owe you my support. If I don't care about your life and your interests, then I am failing you. I was selfish to want nothing to change. I am SO SO proud of you, and I am going to try to be the friend you TRULY deserve from now on.
I'm sorry I have failed you so often.
I love you more than life. You are basically the wisest person I know. You are incredibly gorgeous, inside and out, and I am so blessed to have you in my life.
You have no idea how much I admire everything you are, and how in awe I am when I take a moment to consider how lucky I am to have you as a friend.

I'm so much better when you're here.
You make me remember who I am,
and you take me to the places that alone I'd never find.

Making you laugh is my favorite.
I never want to make you anything but happy.

You're my bestest. <3