i could use some friends for a change;

I have managed to diagnose my recent case of hating everything as caused by a lack of human companionship. I have been in a major funk lately, because of my bleak prospects for a new place to live & new job, and my lack of friends was making it worse. 

Monday evening I hung out with my dear Kayla, who has been my twitter pal since 2009.. we met on twitter thanks to being mutual lovers of Stacy London, and we've kept in touch via email/tumblr/facebook as well as twitter ever since. She is a complete doll, and came to NYC with her friend Jazmine. I spent some time with them, and Kayla's friend Dylan, on Monday just wandering about the city and having dinner at the Mercer Kitchen in Soho (SO GOOD), and then Kayla & Jazmine stayed the night at my place. 

I really had a wonderful time with them!! To be honest I was worried it would be awkward since I view myself as a bit of an awkward person, but it felt really natural and I was outgoing and all smiles. I was happy. 

And that made me realize that, yes, my main problem in my life right now is that I have no fucking friends. Because GUESS WHAT. I am a social being. I am an extrovert, and being around people makes me feel better and more alive than I do when I'm alone. When I'm by myself I have nowhere to look but inwards and always end up getting depressed.

..Now I just have to deal with my friendlessness until Tyler gets here. One week from tomorrow!! 

Yeah.. I realize that this is pathetic. Don't remind me.