that's all i can be;

Here's something frustrating: I have no fucking clue what I want to do with my life. There are lots of things I COULD do..
I could go back to my roots and stage manage. I could struggle to make ends meet for who knows how long, doing multiple jobs at once, in hopes that someday I would get something that actually pays decent money.
I could keep applying and eventually work with a nonprofit- do something that maybe matters. I would be behind a desk 9-5, probably hate the actual work part of it, and might even feel trapped. But I guess there's a chance I could move up in whatever organization and get to travel or something. Idk.
I could apply my ass off and find a way into get into talent management/representation. I could do something I feel like I have always had a knack for, which is seeing potential in others. This is definitely something I think I would enjoy, but breaking into it.. I have no idea how to do that. It would take years.

I could just quit all the searching and be a nanny or something... I'd get paid well enough, and probably be able to take enough time off to travel when I wanted to.

I could be a bartender.

I could get on a plane tomorrow and move to Chicago or Miami or California.

I could just travel until my money runs out completely, and then have to get a job wherever I am when that happens.

I could go get a masters degree in something.

Life is so wide open, I have to keep reminding myself that I am completely free, and I can make my life into whatever journey I want it to be.

So why is it so hard to pick one?

More than anything, the thing I want to do most is live passionately. I just don't know which path is going to allow me to do that, and to retain that passion.