all we can do is keep breathing;

The way you held my hand;
the smile that it seemed only I could give you;
the words of wisdom that meant so much coming from you;
your watchful eye;
your interest and concern....
You told me, "Do good," whenever I had a test.
You told me he wasn't worthy of me,
You told me I was destined for great things,
You told me, "I shall miss you."
You said you were proud of me,
when I fell, you picked me up
and when my spirits were low, I knew you could lift them..

You loved me.
And now you don't.

What are you supposed to do when the person you would go to for advice is the one who has betrayed you?

Tears fall so slowly now...

I'm not ready to let go.
I doubt I will ever be.

We are lost..who we were is gone forever.
You lifted me up and shattered me. After all I ever did was lift you up.

“The truly painful goodbyes are the ones that are never said, and never explained."

I hate looking back on all this love and seeing it as a lie. I can't stand thinking of you every day, but it happens.

"Not a day goes by, not a single day, but you're somewhere a part of my life and it looks like you'll stay. As the days go by, I keep thinking 'When does it end? Where's the day I'll have started forgetting?' But I just go on thinking and sweating and cursing and crying and turning and reaching and waking and dying; and no, not a day goes by, not a blessed day, but you're still somehow part of my life, and you won't go away. So, there's hell to pay, and until I die, I'll die day after day after day after day after day after day after day..till the days go by."

Every day a little death.

Oh, and the chronic nature of these types of problems sure doesn't help.

Good night.