So, Barbara Fredrickson, my positive psychology professor from fall freshman year said that a gratitude journal was an actual help in making people think more positively about their lives. Thus, I kinda bs-ed my way through one to do my end of semester 15page paper, and I've gotta say, even a bs gratitude journal is kinda nice. :)
So, let's give this a shot.
Here are some things that happened this week that were GOOD.
1. Monday- I skipped class to go shopping and to starbucks with Erin. We had super amounts of fun & saw two random Asian men sitting on the lovers bench.
2. Also Monday- I had a real dinner for the first time in a long time with Taylor & Caroline & saw pretty much everyone I know at Lenoir.
3. Monday still- we had a show. It was amazingly fun, of course. Sarah fixed my hair. I talked to Sarah backstage like always, John ate the bear onstage, the set went swimmingly. Then, backstage, we watched MY youtube videos, and the video of that kid high from the dentist, and then played WOW. :)
4. Monday after the show- Hugs. Though the goodbyes were devastating, the hugs were great. Play by play: I was talking to Katherine, her 2 friends, Tyler, Leigh, Nick & others. Sarah came over to us and I gave her my sad face as she said she had to leave. There was a hug, and I said "I loves you," which she repeated, "Loves you." Then she told Katherine goodbye and said we would all have to have lunch sometime, and left. I continued to whine about the show being over and how Sarah was no longer in my life, which Tyler thought was absurd of course. But then Sarah came back into the cabaret and I got happy again. Then as she was about to leave I grabbed her hand & said, "Sarah! Don't go!" And as she hugged me, again, she explained how her 5page paper was due the next morning, and how she did indeed need to go. I held back the tears, but I felt the love. We let go of the embrace and she looked at me, and without saying anything, held me in her arms again. I guess she knew I needed it. We let go again, and she looked at me and not said, but asked, "Have a good night?" almost as if to make sure I was ready for her to go. I nodded a regretful yes, but it was clear that I would or could never be ready to let go of her. But her presence, that is the positive.
5. Tuesday- easy classes, and yay for getting some work done during lunch.
6. Tuesday night- I went to b-skis with Cat, Leigh, & Erin and we sang a very odd rendition of Hakuna Matata. "Its our problem smmmmm philosophy, hakuna matata!"
7. Wednesday- studying outside/in the union with Taylor, Caroline, Erin, Erica & Natalie. Good times. Very productive. Yay. Alpine dinner was pretty good as well!
8. More Wednesday- H2H was a win. And I get to sing the cue notes all alone! That is the wootfulness! I think it will get better if we keep doing what we did then.
9. Thursday- I actually kinda followed what was going on in 283. Kinda.
10. Later Thursday- musicals class was SO fun. Rachel was a complete happy spaz, which rubbed off on me I must say. She made me LOL. We watched some amazing performances, and the best was when we watched Jennifer Holiday sing "And I am Telling you I'm not Going" and I turned to Rachel, who was making her appalled face, and I CRACKED UP and go, "Rachel! You look scared!!" It was sooooo funneh.
11. And Thursday again- Valentines dinner in Lenoir. Always a memorable event.
12. Friday- Despite the fact that I didn't study for the econ quiz, I did okay on it. Also, we did nothing in PR & then got out early. woot!
13. It was Friday the 13th! I GOT TICKETS TO PATTI LUPONE! And even if I don't get to see Sarah before then, I know she will be there. Plus, I am going with Leigh, Tyler & Katherine which is a major win.
That's it. But its a lot. It matters.
I'm hoping it will help a bit.
I need to blog more often, as I have done the past couple days.
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