if I can wait;

Today was stupid and lame.
I am very very frustrated (still) with trying to work at 2 different places which require such ridiculous hours of me. I have set my availability at job #2 in a way such that I should have NO PROBLEMS with this, but apparently there is a disconnect between what I set as my availability and the schedule that gets made EVERY SINGLE WEEK. Its not fair at all, yet I keep putting up with it because I am a chicken about confronting people about things.

This problem would never have happened if I had just talked to people at job #1 WAY BACK IN JUNE about my hours getting decreased... I feel like they would have taken care of that for me, but no.. I was too scared to do that because I hate seeming ungrateful for the position I have been given. Why am I so stupid.

Instead I ASSUMED that it would be wrong of me to ask about getting more hours, so I had to go out and get a SECOND JOB. WHYYYYYYYY.

Things I have learned from this:
1. NEVER BE AFRAID TO ASK TO WORK MORE AT A JOB YOU HAVE WHERE THE PEOPLE CLEARLY LIKE YOU.
2. Never get a second job if you like sleeping.
3. Emotional breakdowns suck.

Because of the 2 job thing, I now have only about 7 days to get ALL THE THINGS together for my visa. This has snuck on me super fast, and I am totally freaking out about it. (You see, there are about 15 days until my appointment, but about half of those will be spent working at BOTH places, and thus there is no hope on those days of getting anything productive done at all.)

I am worried.

Also, Friday is my birthday. And I have no plans. Well, actually, my plan is to do NOTHING and RELAX and buy things on the internet and then Saturday I think Taylor is coming and I guess we will go shopping and go out to eat and stuff like that. ALSO my parents are coming by for a little while Friday with a CAKE in hand. So that will be lovely. I just really want to have a nice, relaxing weekend. And I only have 2 more shifts of work before it begins. Hallelujah.

I am just generally stressed as hell right now.
I need some zen time.