shining, shimmering, splendid;

Okay! Well. Its time to write some real life words on this thing and not stupid momentary emo words.

Work is going alright.. I am slowly getting used to catering, and I guess I just have to get in a groove where I can be chill yet meticulous about it and stuff. I am getting there..
And I got a second job at a trendy clothing store for little girls. The manager there seems quite nice, and I am probs going to be doing about 20hrs. a week there. It'll give me the opportunity to add something to my resume while making a bit of extra cash! So yay for that. I think. I'm a little intimidated by the idea of having 2 jobs, but I have definitely been busy for more hours a week than I am about to be (with school, theatre, and work in the past) so hopefully it'll be okay and enjoyable.

I just sat outside for like an hour and spoke to Erin Mayfield on the phone about life and stuff. And we sat there talking about how we want to NOT settle down and go to other countries and stuff. And as I sat there, I looked at the countless amounts of lightning bugs flying around me, and I decided that as much as I want to get the hell out of here and see the world, I also need to realize the beauty that is right here. I can't waste my time here wishing to be somewhere else.

I do like it here. Its cool. But I am ready to move on.

Which is why I have decided that I would love to spend some months or a year or something in Italy working as an aupair. This would be pretty ideal, because it would allow me to have a kind of job and make money, have a safe & comfy place to stay and a nice family to help me not be lost and stuff, and at the same time I would get to LIVE IN A NEW COUNTRY and become accustomed to a completely different culture and stuff.
The reason I feel I have put off so many varying Europe plans is because I am worried I won't be satisfied with the experience I have there. I want to get to KNOW Europe, not be rushed through it. I want to do it right. And I think that for me, this might be the answer to that. :) I hope. I really want this to work out.

So that is the news.
There are also things that are more realistic that I am looking forward to such as going parasailing this summer, hopefully going to see Adele in concert the day after my birthday, going to Carowinds, and things like that. I need to make the most of the rest of my time in North Carolina, because I am pretty determined at this point to get out of here in January.

I hope I can do it.
I hope that when that time comes, I will have the strength to make it happen.

Goodnight all.