for me it isn't over;

I just want to be enough for someone. And it hurts to know I'll never be that.

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I feel like I spent all that money and got my passport for no reason at all.
Everyone and their brother is gallivanting across the world so it seems lately and I am stuck here because I have to keep working or else I'll be broke and homeless and that is the story of my life. Because I cannot get behind because if I do there will be no one to bail me out. I can't take time off to go anywhere that's going to take more than like 2-3 days. That's just how it is.

I feel like I will forever be stuck living this incredibly boring life.

I apologize for the self pity rampage, but this is just how I feel right now.
Yep.