nothing matters;

I have tears hiding behind my eyes.

I got called for an interview for a second job, which is great. I have time for another job, definitely, because I feel like all I ever do is sit on my ass at home and watch television. But I do have a job. That I do love a lot. Doing catering now has allowed me to get to have some great bonding time with Gracie, and fun conversations with Edgar & Hugo.. But I never get to talk to Jackie or Sarai or Olivia or Kevin anymore which is quite unfortunate. But I am so blessed to have been given this opportunity.. putting together catering orders is like.. a really big responsibility when you think about it! People are paying a lot for that shit, and they expect it to be done with extreme care. And sometimes I am absent minded about things like large sporks, which is bad..

BUT the past week or so I have kicked catering's ass and I think everything is fine. So yay.

But anyway, catering means a little more money, but less hours per week... So, with that, plus the fact that I have nothing else happening in my life AT ALL: second job. I hope it works out. Because I also really need something else to add to my resume.

I still have no idea what is going to happen to me in January when my lease runs out. -_-

In other news, I have been dying to get a pet for MONTHS now. I was going to get an HIV positive rabbit via craigslist in the spring, but I chickened out basically about the commitment, so I didn't get it. I still feel a little bad about that. It would have been ideal.

Now I have my heart set on getting a cat though, maybe a rabbit in the future. I feel like rabbits are a bit more high maintenance with the cage cleaning and all that. But anyway, I have been browsing pet adoption websites for over a week now, mulling it all over. I was thinking that I should get an older cat, that would be more chill, and less likely to get adopted by someone else.
But no one thinks I should except myself and Gracie.
Which is a little bit of a piss off.
But... whatever, I guess I'll hold off on getting a fucking cat.

As you can see, I am slightly bitter about this matter.

It happens.

I have more things to say, but I am