power to go;

So I've spoken to several Italian (and Irish and British) families about this aupair thing!!! :DD I am so stoked about this potential experience.

Family A: A mom and a daughter in someplace called Castellammare. Its apparently close to Pompeii and Naples.

Family B: A mom, a dad, 2 daughters and a son. Dublin, Ireland.

Family C: A mom, a dad, a son, and 2 daughters in ROME.

Family D: A mom, a dad, 2 daughters, and a baby girl in TUSCANY.

GAHHH. I am gasming over this as we speak. Every day I flip out a little more if I get another email from any of them.
Its kind of weird though, because like.. I just want one of the families to be like OK WE WANT YOU FOR SURE. And then I can agree or disagree to that. And then I can get a visa. I looked up a lot of things today about how to do that.
But between now and then, I don't really know what to say in these emails.. I already know what a day in my life would be with all of these people. They've given me a lot of details and I know what they look like and I have their references... and I JUST WANT TO BE CLAIMED. Also, right now, I am very calm about the idea of like.. moving to another country in a hot second.

But.

I am well aware of the fact that the closer it gets to this time (if it even happens), the more I am going to freak out. I am going to be a hot mess when I leave for this.

BUT HOW FUN IT COULD BE. GAHHHHH. So much anticipation for this ambiguous opportunity...

I can't even imagine how much I could grow from something like this. Who knows where I will be after. Who knows what I might do with my life. This is what I want though, right now. This is how I want to make the most out of the time I have. I CAN MAKE FRIENDS IN OTHER COUNTRIES. HOW COOL WOULD THAT BE. It'll be like that movie where Mary-Kate & Ashley go to Italy. (There is a movie like that, right?! Probably.) Anyway. This might be the best thing I've ever done. Just sayin.

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“So, I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. And maybe we’ll never know most of them. But even if we don’t have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them.” —Stephen Chbosky