my life sucks without you.

I want you back.

I don't know why the termination of this tiny segment of life meant so much to me. Honestly. I never foresaw the fact that on Monday night I would be holding back tears over this. I just couldn't, and still can't, let go.
Maybe it was because I have admired you since long before I knew you.
Maybe it was because you never judged me.
Maybe it was because you were so friendly from the beginning.
Maybe it was because you never even implied that you were 10 times more talented than me, when we both know you are.
Maybe it was because you listened; and you shared.
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Or maybe it was just because your love alludes me, and that makes me want it all the more.
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All I know is, you made it onto the list of people that I never want to let go of... and there is a hole in my heart until I see you again.
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You reassured me. You said not to worry. You said you'd never leave.

I pray that was not a lie.

I pray you don't fall into the trap of good intentions, and then forget my name. I hate it.

I cannot let this happen again.

Be the exception, please.

I love you more than you will ever know.