failblog.

As I have mentioned in previous mspace about me's, I completely fail at conversation. For example, if someone tells a story.. I am NEVER able to think of some witty 'related story' as people everywhere seem to be able to do. This is a problem. Because when I can out with a certain person A and person B, I become the third wheel.

I have nothing to say that would really relate to the conversation at hand, so I just wait for the proper moment of silence to launch in with a random tidbit of something that I find remotely interesting.. and then, boom. Story time again. Thanks person A.

That said, it is extremely important for me to build one-on-one relationships with people who are older than me... Select people, that is- like Leslie, Kelsey, Susan, Debra, and now, person B.

I LOVE person B... so much. She is the best ever. She and I are SO kindred its ridiculous. But she of course, would not know how kindred we are, because EVERY time we hang out person A has to delve into every detail of her oh-so-traumatizing&dramatic life.. and then person B has a rebuttle story, that kind of relates, and me? I've got nothin.

I feel like a horrible person. Because I LOVE person A a lot too!! But I realllyyyyyy do not enjoy hanging out with her & person B together. Because I fail at existing, and am the least interesting person ever, with absolutely nothing to say that would begin to trump the maddness of person A's life story.

Person B, however, really seems to enjoy hanging out with me and person A. Together.
Fail.

This leaves me wondering...
1. Does person B like person A better than me?
2. Would it be mean of me to start hanging out with them separately?
3. Is it wrong that I kinda want to keep them separate.. from each other?? [Yes.]
4. Am I one of person B's ''dont wanna hang out with JUST them'' people??
5. Am I as boring as I think I am?


Boo.

This is a fail.
failblog.

And in case you were wondering, this is just me being paranoid. And it will most likely be over by, say, tomorrow... but still.
Its an issue.
I have a paranoia problem.