plenty of nothing;

So here's what's up. 

1. Tyler came to visit! We did a lot of things including wandering ALL over the place and seeing things that are interesting, got several Tyler approved coffees (and one random frappiccino from Starbucks.. that's right- that's Tyler's wild side), saw PORGY & BESS AND HOLY HELL IT WAS SO FRICKING AMAZING PLEASE LET ME MARRY NORM LEWIS IMMEDIATELY. And also we ate at Serendipity and had massive sundaes, I had a kickass omlette at Mercer Kitchen, we looked at clothing in Soho, hung out at Chelsea Piers and in Hoboken, I SAW MAURO from Cake Boss but didn't get to meet him because my life is hell, had drinks at this bar thing that was underground and kind of scary looking from the outside but very tasty, and we ate at Max Brenner and went to the Met and... all the things.

2. The job situation is shit still. Nothing new.

3. I have potentially good roommates for September, and am very much looking forward to having my own space.. Though I am completely dreading the expenses and the move itself. Moving in Manhattan is like ... something no one should ever have to deal with ever. Its not cute. But I am also looking forward to making my room cute and stuff. That will hopefully be enjoyable. 

4. I need a female bff who I can go have coffee with and vent about life. Like really yo. I miss having bffs. 

Yes, I literally just said "bffs" ... 

ALSO I really want to go to that damn carnival thing at Central Park while its still summer and I have SO many shows I need to go see and I want to go to effing Coney Island and also it would be nice to go to a beach of some sort as I have NOT BEEN IN A BATHING SUIT AT ALL THIS ENTIRE SUMMER. 

I remain in a very weird emotional place... I really want to be brimming with joy but I am just always so preoccupied with the amount of chaos in my life I just can't. I am also obsessing over stupid body image shit and the like. I won't get into all that now but.. guh. Can I please just hang out with Stacy London? Honestly it seems like that would do me a world of good right now. 

Things I need but cannot afford:

-a haircut

-more legit work appropriate clothing- the stuff I have right now is a complete hot mess. I look like a 17 year old trying to be an adult and failing

-vegetables

-meat

-fruit

-ingredients for making quesadillas

-Crest white strips

But really though I want to marry Norm Lewis. Everyone should go see that show immediately. It is immaculate.