somebody told me that's where dreamers should go

I don't know what it is about looking at the New York Times website, which I do every day when I get to news writing class, that makes me become suddenly inspired to look at real estate and job listings.
Its pretty nonsensical.
I have 2 more years of school left, so even if I find a great apartment and a great job online, its not like I can ask them to hold it for me for the next 2 years.
But it makes me wish I could.
I'm seriously starting to consider trying to get a job and just moving up there after I graduate.. maybe after spending some of the summer at home.
But I would need to spend all of senior year, basically, job searching so that I'll be financially secure. PLUS, I will need more money for like.. furniture & crap. Which means I'll have to work my ass off next summer.
This is potentially a workable plan, but a very idealistic one.
Perhaps I'll spend a year here in NC before I enact this, just for monetary purposes.
Or perhaps I'll find a man before then and not want to move at all.
Who knows.
But as far as the man thing goes, on a different note, I don't know why God hasn't provided me with one yet. Maybe I'm not quite ready.. or maybe I'm just not where He wants me to be.
I have always been attracted to older guys.. like, seriously. I have been in love with John Travolta and Michael J. Fox since I was like 11. And they're both old enough to be my father.
So maybe I'll end up with an older guy... Not ridiculously old, just maybe someone who is like..26 right now.. Someone too old for me to meet here at school. You get me.
And maybe I'll meet that person in NYC.

Or maybe this is all wrong and I'll meet the man of my dreams tomorrow as I walk past Kenan Stadium.
You never know.

Anyway, as far as the job thing goes, I am really starting to believe in myself. I think, I know, that I am determined and hard working, and would be able to do any number of things in several different fields.

Why not grad school, you ask?
Well, apparently, there are TWO grad schools for theatre... UNCG and something in CA. And no. No thank you.
I could go to grad school for journalism, but to be honest I really don't want to.
I want to live my life.

And I want to work towards my equity card when I am in NYC (if I'm in NYC) on the side of doing a normal job, in hopes of getting to work on a Broadway show someday.

My goals, since age 12, have remained the same.
Who knew.

But this is all subject to change.
If anyone has advice or thoughts, feel free to contribute.