you make me sing;

I need to discuss, yet again, how much I love and adore Stacy London. She is incredible, and just when you don't expect it, she is there, and she brightens my day like no one else can.
Yesterday I randomly tweeted that its about time for me to get a new picture with her.. and she responded "Love your new pic and love your quote. Hope you are doing well!" Ok. This means A) she notices my twitter pictures & when they change, B) she WENT to my page before responding and read the quote on there.. and C) she gives a shit.
She is made of magic. And she has shared so much of her wisdom with me- DIRECTLY with me- and it has changed my life for the better. And in turn, I have shared that wisdom with others.

Stacy came to me (through me watching endless hours of What Not to Wear) at a point in my life when I was feeling pretty much like shit. I had just gone through a weird ambiguous yet huge and hurtful thing and I wasn't sure where to turn or who would be able to understand. I didn't know of my self worth or my potential at all, and needless to say, I had no personal style.

And then Stacy London happened. And then I met her that October, right before I turned 21. And she made me feel SO special and amazing and she told me I could change my life, and I believe her. Those words have stuck with me like no other, and that sentence goes through my head ALL the time. I can change my life. And I have tried to live by those words, and because of them I have become more independent, self reliant, bolder, and more willing to go after what I want and stand up for what I believe in. She gave me a newfound confidence, which has gotten me through the struggles I've had since, and somehow just watching something.. anything.. with her in it lifts my spirits so much and helps me realize how worth it I am, and how I should never give up.

Stacy has struggled in her life. She has been through some rough times, and I have struggled in some very similar ways to her. I relate to her on a personal level, and it means a lot to me that she is so completely sincere and genuine in all ways. She is so real, so present. I admire her SO much, and I hope to be as inspirational and bright and free and beautiful as she is.

I know that people who know me will think this is repetitive, because, frankly, I talk about this rather often. But my adoration for Stacy is something that grows every time she tweets at me, every time I read a quote from her or see a picture of her or see an interview with her. She was the person who REALLY made me into who I am today, and represents a lot of what I want to be.

I will always owe her a lot, because she literally was the sunlight that made me blossom, and that is a priceless thing.

:) I have more to say.. about real life and the fact that I am very nervous for the future and I am coming home SO SOON.. but we will get to that later.