bright lights & lollipops;

“I relish life. Its a life of which I am fiercely protective. I have wrestled it back from madness and madness cannot take it from me again. I will not throw it away. So what if it isn’t a normal life? Its the one I have. Its difficult, beautiful, painful, full of laughter, passing strange. Whatever else it is, whatever it brings - its mine.” -Mariska Hargitay

Hot damn I love Mariska Hargitay. She is like too perfect to be a real human.

Ok.

SO.
I have literally applied to over 100 jobs. Probably close to 150 if not more.
And I am beginning to freak out.

I mean, out of all those, there has to be AT LEAST ONE who thinks I am a viable candidate.. right?!?! You'd think so.
But of course my brain is like NOPE YOU SUCK YOU WILL LIVE IN A CARDBOARD BOX AND NEVER FIND A REAL JOB.

So basically I am freaking out. Every time I check my email I'm hoping there will be a reply from one of my job applications, but no such luck thus far. I don't know what to do.
I won't move to NYC without a job offer, and couldn't even if I wanted to because there are salary requirements when you sign a lease. So yeah. A job is what I need right now, first and foremost.

That's really all I wanted to say. Now I'm going to watch Will & Grace bloopers on youtube and laugh my troubles away.