put the ukulele down

I have been really complacent lately. And I am getting a little bothered by it, but I don't have a whole lot of desire to change it.

Maybe celebrating my birthday will give me the jolt I need to get off my ass and start doing things.

In other news, my visa appointment is made! There is so much paperwork though.. and it is all just a jumbled mess in my folder and its all so confusing and I am oh so overwhelmed by it..

In other news, The People's Court is incredible and so is Judge Marilyn Milian and I want to be just like her when I grow up.

you could see the stars;

Heeeey time for a new post. Holla.

So my life is still really boring. Like, immensely so. But on Saturday I actually got to hang out with a HUMAN. And that human was Samantha. We went to dinner and I ran into a theatre friend, Matt, who greeted me by picking me up and squeezed me super tightly as I in turn wrapped my legs around his waist. It was a cute moment which everyone else in that restaurant seemed weirded out by. lol. :)
It was a good evening. We drank fun-flavored soda and then went shopping and I got some new SUPER SOFT skinny jeans.. they are a bit tighter than I like my pants to be, but they do stretch out and will be great to wear with boots, which I ALWAYS do in winter. I also got a LOW KEY SKIRT which I will be able to wear with normal shirts. AT LAST. It is shiny-ish but ... hopefully it will still match things with ease. It is a neutral.. kind of a bronzey-black. I like it..
Now I just need some good casual shoes... I'm thinking either Toms or Chucks.

Other things on my Need to Buy list are:

a wallet that is smaller than my current one

I kind of like this one: http://www.etsy.com/listing/78628746/1970s-retro-wallet-rainbow-hearts ..but I want to see what it looks like on the inside. Its cute though, small and simple.

a passport case

I'm trying to decide between this: http://www.etsy.com/listing/79224929/passport-cover-passport-case-passport and this: http://www.etsy.com/listing/76586026/passport-case-spring-fever-2

luggage tags (not a NEED, but I do want some cute/bright ones)

I really like these: http://www.etsy.com/listing/82049590/lime-green-monster-luggage-tag-pink-tag but they are a bit pricey.. adorable though, and they come in several different colors.

a jewelry roll

Maybe this one: http://www.etsy.com/listing/73825105/design-your-own-ooak-jewelry-roll-from ..I like the brown pattern at the top, but want to know what it looks like on the outside.. I feel similarly about the bottom picture.

and a travel case for cosmetics .. I cannot find one of these I really like online, but there are some (kind of expensive though) at the retail store where I work.. and they are kind of juvenile looking. I might just settle though. They are rather cute.


I am in the process of getting the visa paperwork together, after finally getting some ink for my printer and then having a fight with it so it would actually function. So that stuff is progressing well.. I have lots of time for this, which is good.

I am also still trying to figure out what to do for my birthday weekend.. I want to do something super fun but.. I don't know what that would be. My dear friend Olivia wants to throw a masquerade party, but so few of my friends are in the area that I feel like it will not be the shindig she is hoping for.
Nevertheless.

I am going to watch more of The People's Court now... Judge Marilyn Millian is badass and fierce and amazing. I am obsessed with this show.. and have been since I was 9.

once I find the other side of someday;

I am so pissed about the visa process. My emails are not getting answers and when I try to call I am answered by a woman who has NO IDEA about the visa process, and is just told to tell people to email. Dude. What.

So, basically, all I know to do at this point is to bring ALL THE FORMS EVER that MAY OR MAY NOT have anything to do with an Italy visa. My host dad has implied that I can get a non-business-type visa and be ok. I am going to do the forms for ALL THE VISAS. lol.

And then I will arrive at the appointment and be like this is my situation. These are all the forms. Give me a visa now or I will cut you.
I am hoping that will work.

Also, I just want to express how boring my life is nowadays. The thing with me is, I get set in my ways really easily. Like, if my routine is to be going non-stop and doing 100 things, then that is what I do, and I do it well. But if my routine is to go to work, nap, and then do nothing all afternoon, then that is what I do. And I get kind of bothered when whatever routine I have is interrupted. .. Is that really weird? Its just like when I think I am done at work and then suddenly we get more catering orders or when I am JUST ABOUT to fall asleep and then after my phone has made no sounds all day, someone decided to start texting me.
Maybe that is weird and whiny, but my point is, my life is completely dumb and boring but I am just in a routine for the moment I guess... so I am kind of ok with it. Not to mention the fact that every single day is a countdown to when I get to move the hell out of here.

I would also like to say that even though Erin is in France, she remains the ONLY friend I talk to on a daily basis. She is awesome.

ALSO. I AM SO UPSET THAT I DON'T GET TO SEE ADELE IN CONCERT. I mean really. It is my BIRTHDAY weekend, it is close by, I have no other birthday plans as of now... it would completely make my month. But.. Its not going to happen and I am quite upset about that.

rumour has it;

Some things I want to say.

1. I am really really addicted to trail mix.

2. I went to the parents' house over the weekend with every intention of cleaning out my bedroom there... needless to say that did NOT happen. Instead, I was busy with things most of the day Saturday and then Sunday I was super sick and barfing. Not good. I guess the anti-hoard will have to wait until Thanksgiving... SIGH.

3. I bought my plan ticket to Paris!! :D And now I am in the battle to try to figure out how I will get from there to Verona... there are lots of options, but most of them are complicated and/or time consuming and/or will have luggage limits.

4. I played my ukulele today for the first time since like June. I love that instrument, but I am really bad at being dedicated to something along those lines. I feel like I won't even play it really if I take it to Italy.. but at the same time I feel obligated to bring it because I feel like I SHOULD want to play it.

5. Anyone have any suggestions on how to sell a guitar and then move one's extraneous belongings back home without one's parents noticing that the guitar is missing??

I have to go to work in like ten minutes.. buh. Also, I need to pay the bills and I need to pay the rent soon and I need to buy more things for Europe and GAHH HOW WILL I EVER HAVE MONEY AGAIN. Maybe I can ask for birthday/Christmas gifts that are like.. train tickets and things I need for Italy. That is a good plan.

we next play verona;

I am so antsy to get out of the country.

I want an adventure and a new life and I want to be somewhere where this are things to do other than sit around and eat cheese and watch crappy television.

I NEED TO MAKE MY VISA APPOINTMENT GAHHHHHHHHH. But I want my appointment to be October 21, and the website is only up through the 7th right now.. Blargh. I have tried emailing, to no avail. Alas. I suppose I will just have to wait for the flipping website to update.
Another issue in all this, is that I really have no idea what all I need to get the visa. Some things are obvious like a passport, contract with the family, etc. But.. I don't know all the things, and every website I have been to has had conflicting information. Perhaps I will just bring like.. every possible thing and hopefully be ok.

I have also been looking at plane tickets, as I said in my last post. I am planning to go ahead any buy my ticket from here to Paris sometime maybe this weekend or early next week. That will be the easy part.
Then I have to worry about getting myself (and all my luggage) to Verona. I emailed my host family about it, but it looks like I am going to use easyjet. I am a little concerned about their luggage limits though... because I am going to have a lot of shit. Also I might have to fly into Venice instead. So many complications. Buhhh.

I am sleepy but Top Model is on.

All I do nowadays is sit around on the internet, sleep, and go to work.
Buh.
My life is incredibly boring nowadays.

shake it out;

I have been in a good mood all day and suddenly I feel really alone. I need a hug.

comfortable talking;

I really hate trying to plan things with people who refuse to have any sort of input in the planning process. Especially guys. Like, seriously. If you want to go on a date with me, you need to have at least some sort of an idea what the plan is. Because I don't want to deal with it. Also, when given an option of 4 different possible days, PLEASE HAVE AN OPINION ON WHICH DAY IS BEST. Good Lord. I don't give a shit. I will be in another country in 3.5 months. You are probably not "the one" or anything like that. So yeah. I am fine with refusing to make a plan. haha.

^That was a very pointless rant.

I am REALLY in the mood to buy a plane ticket today for my trip (my flight to Paris that is, so that I can spend New Years with Erin before I go to Italy)... but I don't think its for sure that I can stay with Erin's host family.. But... A) I doubt they will say no and B) I can always stay in a hostel if I need to. I will have a lot of luggage and crap, which would make the hostel thing annoying, but I am sure that I could leave some of my stuff in Erin's giant studio apartment bedroom thing.

...I just looked at my checking account and maybe actually I should hold off on getting this. ... Although. It is a great price right now, and I wouldn't want to risk spending more if I get it later.

I guess I'll hold off though until I at least speak to Erin about it.
I just have the urge to jump the gun on all this because I am dying to get out of here. lol.

If I don't spend ANY money for the rest of the week, I might be able to pay for this on Friday with my paycheck from my second job... and then I get paid at job #1 Monday, and I can use that money for.. life and stuff. haha. Perhaps that is the best plan. ALSO I am going home this weekend so my mother might give me a little cash because she is always really worried about the fact that I don't carry cash for some reason.

OH HEY. If I go Air Canada, I can afford to buy this today!! hahahaa.

I mean, worst case scenario, Erin has to end up traveling over the holidays with her host family, and I have to stay in a hostel in Paris and spend New Years alone. That is still not a bad scenario at all... More expensive, but good Lord. Worth it I think.

I just tried to call my mother about this but her phone seems to be off. GUHHH.

Maybe I should not clean out my checking account RIGHT NOW. That might not be wise... I want a plane ticket yo.

^This has been a pointless plane ticket saga.

life is just a hostess snack;

I am bored so I yanked this from tumblr, where people post this and see what questions they get asked.. and here I have just DONE IT WITHOUT ANYONE DESIRING IT. Boo yah.

A- If I'm in love.
I am a little in love with my best friend, but not in a romantic or sexual way. Just in a loving way.

B - Who the last person I talked to on the phone was.
My mother probably.

C - How long it's been since I've kissed.
Uhh, like .. gah almost 2 months.

D - If I have a preference for boys or girls.
Sexually? Boys. Friendship? Girls.

E - How many holes I have in my ears.
Just one.

F - Give me any options, like 'hot or cold?'
..this no longer really applies, but for the example, I choose cold.

G - The last person I said 'I love you' to.
Maybe Erin? Or my mom. Probably my mom.

H - The last person I hugged.
Erin's mom.

I - The last time I felt jealous, and why.
Right now.. because so many of my friends are in other countries!

J - How old I am.
22.. SIGH.

K- What my full name is.
Kelley Anderson.. for some reason I feel weird giving my middle name.

L - If I have siblings.
Nope.

M - If I forgive betrayal.
Yes. Always. Sometimes too quickly.

N - If you want to know how I treat my friends.
With love. There are very few people who I openly divulge information to though, because most of the time I feel inferior, like I should be listening and not talking, and thus I only open up fully when I feel like the other person has shown that they care & WANT to know. I try to be there whenever my friends need me!

O - If I like my school.
I NO LONGER HAVE A SCHOOL. Yay me.

P - What kind of music I like.
Lots. Showtunes, top 100, pop/rock, oldies, some country, some R&B... lots of things.

Q - What the last party I went to was, and when the next will be.
The last one was that thing where Erin bought chips and invited people over.. but the one before that was Stacy's birthday thing I think.. Next? No idea.

R - For me to tell 10 of my curiosities.
Ten is too many.

S - 2 habits.
messing with my hair.. picking at my cuticles

T- 5 things I love unconditionally.
My friends (many of whom seem to give little to no shits about me),

U - How many texts I send daily.
VERY few..

V - 3 big dreams.
Find a life... that is really the only one at this point.

W - An idol.
Stacy London.

X - If I've done something I regret very much.
No not really.. there are definitely things I would change if I could turn back the clock though.

Y - If I like my town and why.
Ew no. It sucks and I cannot wait to leave.

Z - Ask any question you want.
lol how lame am I for answering all these with no one wanting me to...

biding my time;

Well, Erin is safe and happy in France now, and I am safe and bored in my apartment.

I need to work on keeping myself occupied now that there is no one to hang out with.. so I guess at the very least this is going to give me an excuse to keep my room clean and perhaps start learning some Italian.. ? Buh. Orrr perhaps I'll just watch shitty television like Dance Moms.

I also need to figure out when I am going to get my visa, and get all the things I need to get before I go to Italy, in addition to getting rid of all the crap that I don't want anymore.

Also, I bought some cute new camis today, as well as a cute sweaterish thing that is grey & purple striped. AND a black boyfriend cardigan, which is an item I have been wanting since like 3 years ago. So yay for that.

I keep getting distracted from writing this, so I think I am going to be done now. :)

& now I'm all alone again;

Can I just say that right now, I need either some sex, some food, or some sleep.

There's no options for sex, there is no food here... I think I might just let myself fall asleep.

Erin is on a plane to France now, where she will be for an indefinite amount of time.. France that is, not the plane.

Its way too quiet and boring in here without her, so now I am in my room where at least there are wall decorations.

Sleep. That's what I am going to do now. Maybe also weep a little.

tatoue moi;

So I want to perhaps get a tattoo on the top of my right thigh, on the front right below like.. the underwear line.
I am not sure what I want though. Definitely words, but WHAT WORDS. I have about a million favorite songs and quotes that speak to my soul.. I looked through a long compilation of quotes that I love and came up with these ideas:

reawaken

seek for your garden (a line from the finale song in Children of Eden)

no more walls

improbable, beautiful and afraid of nothing (from a Mary Oliver quote)

I believe its somewhere, and I hope its beautiful (from Looking for Alaska, inspired by Thomas Edison's last words)

And so today I still have a dream (part of a Martin Luther King Jr. quote)

swirling in the blue like jazz (Donald Miller, from his book Blue Like Jazz)

mourning into dancing (from Psalm)

still, like air, I’ll rise (the ending line of a Maya Angelou poem)

there will be light (the final line of music in Next to Normal)

TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK OF THESE.
I need ideas and opinions.

so what, who cares;