you burn so brightly in the dark;

The thing is, I don't know what I want to do with my life. And as a college senior, I am freaking out about it.
You know what I really want to do?
I want to make people feel good about themselves.
I want to work with cool people and get paid enough to not worry so much.
I want to have a job that I don't hate.
That's really all.

I don't have time right now to think about insurance or RETIREMENT for goodness sake because I feel like I have some time before those things need to be my TOP priority. Guh. This is so stressful.

I just want a rough plan. Its not like I need a guarantee of anything. I just need a plan. But in order for that to happen, I need to make some decisions as to where I want to be and what I want to do. Its just so frustrating. Things are way too up in the air and I don't like it.

I need someone older and wiser to just tell me straight up what they think I should do. I like to get other people's opinions on things. SO HEY GUYS GIVE ME SOME OPINIONS.
Right now there has been a motion to postpone the move to NYC to the very beginning of January as opposed to mid-August (of this year).
I just don't know what the better decision is. Or if there is a better decision.

This is me freaking out.

And now I'm going to listen to some French music and maybe try to write this dang paper that's due tomorrow.... SIGH.