for you, a thousand times over;

One thing you need to understand about me is that I am done chasing people who aren't interested. Done. Be it a friend or a potential more-than-friend, I am not running after you. If you show no interest in me at all, don't expect me to hold up the entire relationship with one hand. It can't be done, and I refuse to try. Its not fair.
Also, don't try to walk all over me. I am done with that too.. In fact, I have been done with that for a WHILE. It is not going to work.

One other thing you need to understand about me is that I have been incredibly (and CONSTANTLY) overwhelmed with my life all semester. I work 20 hours a week at my part time job, I am in classes, I have homework, I am doing a show, and I work once a week in the scene shop... I have zero free time. I haven't even been to the GROCERY store since THE BEGINNING OF AUGUST. Its a little bit ridiculous. Anyway, because of all this, I feel like I have sort of lost touch with all my lovely friends. And for that I am very sorry. I hate always having to turn down spending time with people because I always have somewhere else I have to be. It sucks. But I mean, don't get me wrong, I am incredibly thankful for my busy life- especially my job. I adore everyone I work with and I really don't mind being there.. I just hate being sleep deprived and stuff.

NEVERTHELESS, I would like to apologize to anyone I have inadvertently blown off over the past few months. I am very scattered. Its not you, its me.

Also uhmm best conversational exchange EVER at work today between me & little cute hobbit man I adore:
Him: Sorry about that.
Me: Oh, you're fine!
Him: Thank you!
Me: Why you're welcome!

...*_*

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OK.
Anyway.
I want to get some Sarah Dessen books and read them, and also John Green's 'An Abundance of Katherines' ... ANNNDDD I GET TO SEE STACY LONDON TOMORROW.

Also, contrary to what the majority of this blog would have you believe, I am happy. And I look for the beauty in each day, and I find it. :) I hope all of you are able to say the same.