you carry your heavy heart with such grace;

i suck at academics.
for real...
i mean, i have clearly been procrastinating a lot this semester. but like, i do what i am supposed to do, and i always feel like i do it well.. and when i have to study, i do. and then i take a test and do crappily on it. i havent even been doing well on papers which it weird for me.
it sucks.
i am so stupid.
i am not smart enough for this school, or to be in the j-school, but at this point i have to keep on trudging because i am too far along to change my major... -_-

i just need to make it through so i can keep doing shows. this is my only purpose now. lol. i suck at lifeeeeeeee!! GUH.

thats all.