i really shouldn't miss you; but i can't let you go

I don't know what to do.

I honestly have no idea.

Its possible... that I'm overreacting. That the "busy" claim reigns true. That you didn't recognize my picture. That you just didn't think. That you changed your email address. That you thought I didn't need you & moved on.
Maybe its just me.

Because this isn't you. I know it isn't.

This is the person you proved me you weren't when you held my face in your hands. You proved to me that you were not this person when you read my play, gave me advice, were happy to see me, looked out for me. That was you. That is the person I know.

I am going to write you a letter.
I have to.
I cannot just let this stew inside me forever.

Because I will continue to wonder. And ask myself, "Is there something I could have done to change this?"
"What did I do wrong?"
"Who are you?"
"Did I change, or did you?"

I really don't know if this is the right course of action to take, but I feel like it is something that has to be done for me. And I feel like if you ever cared about me at all, and I KNOW you did, then you deserve to know how I feel now.
How much you have put me through.
How you were the icing on the cake to being betrayed so many times.
How you made me BELIEVE that when people say "keep in touch" they never mean it. .... I guess if it has to be discussed, then deep down everyone knows it won't work.

You lifted me up.
And I was so happy. So happy to know you, to be in your presence, to have you love me, to have you call me your daughter, to hear you say you were proud of me...
But then you tore me down.
And the trust I had in you was destroyed.
And now... I just don't know.