jolly good

I bought a top hat yesterday. And that is something I think I should bring everyone's attention to. Then Erin and I went to get pizza with Jamie and her boyfriend, Matthew, and haggled the man at a pizza place to give us basically a bigger pizza with added toppings for less money. And it totally happened. And we didn't even have to try very hard. AND the man assumed we were twins because we had to confer with each other on everything, including what we each wanted to drink. It was fun. Jamie was ashamed of my top hat but I was quite pleased with it so BOO YAH. And today is going to be great.

..and there is more blog brewing in my mind but there's no time for all that now.

Have a lovely day, all.
<3

a pleasure cruise;

I would just like to announce to the corner of the world that reads this blog that today I bought tickets to a movie I am ashamed to be going to see (coughECLIPSEcough), bought a t-shirt from Walmart with the brand name, I kid you not, 'George' .. and drove the wrong way on a one way street. Luckily I did not die. But I did laugh.
Now I'm going to make myself a chicken taco salad because I need to use up this lettuce and then study media law all evening.. with breaks of course to play frontierville. Life is good.

last night; i had a dream

So I had this ridiculous dream last night...

I dreamed that I received an email from this youtube semi-celebrity vlogger (that I used to kind of know when I used to kind of make videos). So basically, he emailed me about going to be on some radio show that John Barrowman was going to be on.. and I think Kristin Chenoweth was involved too but I never actually saw her in the dream. So, me and a bunch of other people were in a car on the way to this radio show.. and all of a sudden it was John Barrowman driving the car and not the vlogger dude. So John Barrowman was taking us to be on some radio show.. but then all of a sudden the story changed and John Barrowman was the HOST of a radio show and he had written 2 letters the previous day in order to bring us all onto some other, more popular radio show.
But then we were in this greenhouse slash museum slash maze building. And John Barrowman was giving us a tour and showing us all there was to see in this museum-y place. And he was being really loud and obnoxious, and was waving hello to everyone and giving literal shout-outs to the museum employees- who he somehow knew all of. SO we went through this museum and then we got to the other side of it (which means that then we had to turn around and find our way back to the front- again, it was kind of a maze). However, then Sarai was there, and we all decided that we were hungry and wanted to go to the food court. Somehow I ended up leading the way, and Sarai said the food court was one way and I said it was the other... but John Barrowman followed me so we went my way, and then we were at the food court, and Sarai congratulated me for remembering how to get there.
So we got food- I think we were having Asian food- and it was a lot of fun... having some Asian food with John Barrowman.

Then suddenly I am in my bedroom and Erin is there and we are rolling around on the floor and Sarai is sitting on my bed and then we found this sword that we assumed belonged to Erica (who was not there) and then we pulled it out of its case thing and were discussing the benefits of having a sword for self defense purposes. THEN John Barrowman busts in and grabs my hand and takes me to either Walmart or Target, and we are hanging out and stuff and looking at useless items and all of a sudden I realized that John Barrowman and I were basically BFFs now and therefore I would have to buy him a Christmas present. So I slipped away from him and was looking at possible gifts, and I decided that the most appropriate thing to get him would be a megaphone. So, with that resolved, suddenly Barrowman and I were transported to CFRT in Fayetteville, where they were in a tech rehearsal for BCPE. John Barrowman was apparently going to make a guest appearance in the show as a gym teacher, and would be able to use the megaphone. Fantastic.

And that was basically all I got to in the dream.. but now I like John Barrowman even more, because he was my dream bff. I woke up grinning because of this. :)

inconceivable that we ever part;

If love in fact means that we are branches of the same tree
one and not two
then this tree is spectacularly intertwined
our roots reached toward each other under the ground
groping in desperation to bridge the gap of hate and self-destruction
reaching for something safe & new
if the roots of my tree are yours, where do new roots go as my tree grows?
my oldest roots belong to my past and remain there
and the newest are yours
but my future roots belong to the future
in the darkness we were there
both of us
all of us
anxiously spinning and gazing and wishing someone was there
but we were all there
we just could not see each other
so we had to move closer
we had to risk
we had to let our roots grow and expand and dig through the mud and ash and rocks and debris
but finally our roots found each other
they were doubtful at first
wondering if they were really touching the roots of another
but hesitantly we held on
and as time passed we noticed the hold getting stronger
that our roots were actually growing together and thickening
slowly pushing away the dirt and mud and debris and ash
giving us the strength to let our branches grow
and reach
at first we were
unsure
unsteady
wondering
but now our branches blow in the wind
able to grab onto other trees
strengthen them
let our leaves brush each other with encouragement
and let our branches intertwine with the others
and slowly
sometimes
our roots as they grow
can push away more dust and debris and ash and hopelessness
and reach out to the roots of other trees
until we are a fleet
and web
an army of strength and power and determination and will
and you will not tear us down
lightning may strike
storms may come
rain may fall
but in the darkness we hold on tighter
we reach to each other
we move closer
we soak up the rain and let it help us grow
help us move forward
because we are not alone.

We were never alone.

and our hope in each other lies in the faith we have in the most high
his love for us allows us to love each other
without this love we are nothing
and without it our roots would never grow
and our leaves would wither
and our blossoms would fall to the ground
but together
with the strength of each other
we blow in the breeze
and we flourish and bloom.

sometimes a branch may fall
or a root may snap
and the safety we thought we found is not safe at all
but that is when the trees around you hold on tighter
the grasp you have on them doesn't matter
because they hold you so tightly you cannot even waiver
and you find yourself strong
able to continue growing despite the soreness you have

but eventually the forest fire will come
and it will destroy us
or so it believes
but even then
even when all that is left of us is ash
our ashes will mix as they fall to the ground
and even then
even at our end
no one will separate us
because our link
our hold
is eternal.

“Love is a temporary madness; you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of eternal passion. That is just being in love, which any fool can do. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Those that truly love have roots that grow towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossoms have fallen from their branches, they find that they are one tree and not two.”
-Louis de Bernieres

ridin' solo

North Carolina gets wayyyyy too hot in the summer. This is one of the many reasons I am looking forward to moving to NYC. Life without humidity will be fantastic.

Also I have decided that one of the things I REALLYYY want to do when I live in NYC is visit Carlo's Bakery (yes, the one from TLC's 'Cake Boss') and get a pastry. Because I love that show and those people. They are so.. New Yorkish! I love it!
And those pastries look FANTASTIC.

I need to make an NYC to do list. :)

This week has not nearly been as "boring" as I assumed it would be. And next week will be fun, because lots of fun stuff is happening.
So basically this weekend is the only time that has the potential to be agonizingly lonely. UNLESS Erin is here.. which we are not sure about yet. BUT if she is not here then I plan to force myself to study media law like a mofo.
I've been doing a pretty good job (I think) of staying on top of it, but I am still really worried about getting it all in my head for the test. We shall see how that goes.

Buh.

Doctor Who companionship :)

Susan
Take Which Doctor Who companion are you? (girls) today!

You're Susan!

For a fugitive from your own people, you're one of the most innocent of the companions, probably because your grandfather is so protective of you. You bring out the tenderness behind the Doctor's bluster and occasional coldness. You are implicitly trusting of the Doctor, no matter what he gets you and the others into, and your confidence in him helps others rally around him, too. Your sweetness and fondness for humans is the legacy you leave him even after you move on.

YANA

You forget that, in the dark, we must move closer together in order to see each other. You were never alone.
<3