I actually wrote this on Thanksgiving but am now finally posting it on Christmas day. So uh.. Merry Christmas? And here are some things I am thankful for.
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Today is Thanksgiving, my favorite holiday. I am spending it alone unfortunately, but there are soooo many things I am thankful for an so many reasons I am okay with being here by myself today.
Here is what I am thankful for.
1. My beautiful, amazing, incomparable best friend Jenn. She is everything to me and everything I am and she is perfect and I won at life because she is in it.
2. My health.
3. My parents, who are always willing to support me.
4. The fact that I fulfilled a lifelong dream by moving to NYC and making a life for myself here.
5. My job.
6. My boss and my coworkers, all of whom are lovely.
7. The NYC subway, and the fact that I do not have to pay for gas or car insurance or tune ups or oil changes, and I can get where I need to go.
8. My best friend's cat, who lives here with us.
9. Iced coffee.
10. My apartment- it is adorable and getting more and more well decorated by the day... its great.
11. The park across the street, and the amazing view of lower Manhattan we can see from there.
12. The fact that the convenient store next door takes debit/credit cards.
13. The delicious pizza place down the street.
14. Photography.
15. Musical theatre, and the fact that I live in a city where it is so easy to experience.
16. Music in general, and inspiring lyrics.
17. The fact that I am able to not only get things I need, but also lots of things that I just want.
18. Netflix, hulu plus, the internet, social media, all that stuff.
19. Chipotle burritos.
20. The deliciousness of Thanksgiving food.
21. ALL my friends, new and old.
22. My freedom.. not just as like an American and stuff, but also as a human who doesn't have to depend on anyone to do what I want.
23. My past- including my theatre & school experiences, that made me who I am today.
24. Stacy London. I owe her SO much.. I know I say this a lot, but she honestly did change my life and without her I have no idea where I would be right now.
25. The experiences I was so fortunate to have in Europe, especially Poland.
26. Hugs.
27. The fact that the majority of my problems are first world problems.
28. Old friends, many of whom I am no longer in touch with, but all of whom had a hand in shaping me into who I am!
29. Laughter.
30. Faith.
That's all I can think of at the moment. Happy Thanksgiving lovely people! :)
Wednesday, December 25, 2013
Friday, November 15, 2013
personality;
So I took the RHETI personality test and tied on ALL THREE of these results. Mostly putting this here for my own fyi.
Type Two
The Helper
The caring, interpersonal type. Twos are empathetic, sincere, and warm-hearted. They are friendly, generous, and self-sacrificing, but can also be sentimental, flattering, and people-pleasing. They are well-meaning and driven to be close to others, but can slip into doing things for others in order to be needed. They typically have problems with possessiveness and with acknowledging their own needs. At their Best: unselfish and altruistic, they have unconditional love for others.
The Helper
The caring, interpersonal type. Twos are empathetic, sincere, and warm-hearted. They are friendly, generous, and self-sacrificing, but can also be sentimental, flattering, and people-pleasing. They are well-meaning and driven to be close to others, but can slip into doing things for others in order to be needed. They typically have problems with possessiveness and with acknowledging their own needs. At their Best: unselfish and altruistic, they have unconditional love for others.
Type Three
The Achiever
The adaptable, success-oriented type. Threes are self-assured, attractive, and charming. Ambitious, competent, and energetic, they can also be status-conscious and highly driven for advancement. They are diplomatic and poised, but can also be overly concerned with their image and what others think of them. They typically have problems with workaholism and competitiveness. At their Best:: self-accepting, authentic, everything they seem to be—role models who inspire others.
The Achiever
The adaptable, success-oriented type. Threes are self-assured, attractive, and charming. Ambitious, competent, and energetic, they can also be status-conscious and highly driven for advancement. They are diplomatic and poised, but can also be overly concerned with their image and what others think of them. They typically have problems with workaholism and competitiveness. At their Best:: self-accepting, authentic, everything they seem to be—role models who inspire others.
Type Seven
The Enthusiast
The busy, productive type. Sevens are extroverted, optimistic, versatile, and spontaneous. Playful, high-spirited, and practical, they can also misapply their many talents, becoming over-extended, scattered, and undisciplined. They constantly seek new and exciting experiences, but can become distracted and exhausted by staying on the go. They typically have problems with impatience and impulsiveness. At their Best: they focus their talents on worthwhile goals, becoming appreciative, joyous, and satisfied.
The Enthusiast
The busy, productive type. Sevens are extroverted, optimistic, versatile, and spontaneous. Playful, high-spirited, and practical, they can also misapply their many talents, becoming over-extended, scattered, and undisciplined. They constantly seek new and exciting experiences, but can become distracted and exhausted by staying on the go. They typically have problems with impatience and impulsiveness. At their Best: they focus their talents on worthwhile goals, becoming appreciative, joyous, and satisfied.
Sunday, October 27, 2013
but we'll never be royals;
I can honestly say that life does not get any less confusing between the ages of 15 and 25. If anything, it gets more confusing.
At 15, all you're faced with is high school drama and dealing with parents on a daily basis. Those are the challenges.
At 25, I've come to realize that I am often overcome with a sense of.. "Am I doing this right?" And by "this" I mean life... everything. I feel like my life has all these different chapters. Chapter 1 being childhood, 2 would be high school and all the memories I have of my theatre friends and how at that time I specifically defined myself as a "theatre person" ... In the next chapter, college, I lost confidence in that definition and attempted to expand my horizons a bit. I did anything and everything, got my first real job, made a whole new set of friends and completely lost contact with the vast majority of people I'd called my best friends just months prior. For me the next chapter would be Europe. Though it was only 4 months, the time I spent in Europe hugely altered my sense of self. Before that, I was VERY extroverted in terms of needing people around and pulling in energy from those around me. While there, I had to learn to rely solely on myself, and got to a place where I did not need anyone else to get that energy.
My next chapter was and is New York. And this is going to be a long one, because I will probably live here for many years, if not the rest of my life... and it will have tons of smaller chapters inside it.
But the theme of this chapter so far is uncertainty. I have given up a lot to have what I have now.. and at times I'm not sure if I've made the right decisions. There are times when I am so incredibly thankful for the life I have now and I just take a moment to think about what it took to get here and I get happy. But other times ... I just don't know. I know I love living here and I know that this is where I've always wanted to be and that is not going to change. But the more personal choices.. like not doing a great job of keeping in touch with old friends and not taking more chances and putting myself out there... am I doing life wrong?
This is a very confused post, but if you're still reading, well,... good luck to you.
Do other people feel this way? Like there's a chance things might be better if you'd made other choices?
Who knows.
I'll end this by saying- I really am happy most of the time. This is the exception.
Its just been one of those days.
At 15, all you're faced with is high school drama and dealing with parents on a daily basis. Those are the challenges.
At 25, I've come to realize that I am often overcome with a sense of.. "Am I doing this right?" And by "this" I mean life... everything. I feel like my life has all these different chapters. Chapter 1 being childhood, 2 would be high school and all the memories I have of my theatre friends and how at that time I specifically defined myself as a "theatre person" ... In the next chapter, college, I lost confidence in that definition and attempted to expand my horizons a bit. I did anything and everything, got my first real job, made a whole new set of friends and completely lost contact with the vast majority of people I'd called my best friends just months prior. For me the next chapter would be Europe. Though it was only 4 months, the time I spent in Europe hugely altered my sense of self. Before that, I was VERY extroverted in terms of needing people around and pulling in energy from those around me. While there, I had to learn to rely solely on myself, and got to a place where I did not need anyone else to get that energy.
My next chapter was and is New York. And this is going to be a long one, because I will probably live here for many years, if not the rest of my life... and it will have tons of smaller chapters inside it.
But the theme of this chapter so far is uncertainty. I have given up a lot to have what I have now.. and at times I'm not sure if I've made the right decisions. There are times when I am so incredibly thankful for the life I have now and I just take a moment to think about what it took to get here and I get happy. But other times ... I just don't know. I know I love living here and I know that this is where I've always wanted to be and that is not going to change. But the more personal choices.. like not doing a great job of keeping in touch with old friends and not taking more chances and putting myself out there... am I doing life wrong?
This is a very confused post, but if you're still reading, well,... good luck to you.
Do other people feel this way? Like there's a chance things might be better if you'd made other choices?
Who knows.
I'll end this by saying- I really am happy most of the time. This is the exception.
Its just been one of those days.
Friday, September 6, 2013
dancing through the fire;
A lot has happened since last I wrote. After returning from NOLA, I was unemployed for like a month, my ceiling caved in, my ceiling got fixed, I went to Starquest finals in VA Beach, decided reluctantly to take a long term temp job, started the temp job, got offered a real full time job, took that, still am there and liking it(!), looked for an apartment, found an apartment and put down a deposit on the spot, got approved for it, signed a lease, and am MOVING TO BROOKLYN WITH MY BEST FRIEND at the end of the month.
Its going to be good.
And the apartment is adorable and perfect and right across the street from a park with a POOL and a track where we can run. Its basically the ideal scenario.
Despite all this, I have been having major issues lately with liking myself. I have no idea where my self-confidence got off to but I'd really appreciate it if it'd get its ass back here.
It came back for a little while thanks to Jenn but keeps coming and going and being stupid and unpredictable.
It came back for a little while thanks to Jenn but keeps coming and going and being stupid and unpredictable.
SO, for now, I'm going to make a list of things I like about myself because why the hell not. No one reads this blog anyway.
1. I like my sincerity.
2. I like how easy it is for me to unconditionally love people.
3. I like how prompt I am in uploading facebook photos.
4. I like how entertained I am by silly reality shows like Here Comes Honey Boo Boo.
5. I like that I can make myself laugh.
6. I like how I can complete tasks very quickly.
7. I like my ability to learn new things quickly.
8. I like the fact that I have a thorough knowledge of the NYC subway map and Manhattan geography.
9. I like my determination.
10. I like how organized I can be.
11. I like that I am a quick thinker.
12. I like my generosity.
..meh is that enough? Let's go with yes.
I have discovered though, that as long as I am staying involved and doing different activities outside of work, then I will be a lot happier.
Best friend and I are running a 5k tomorrow, I'm volunteering at ACS's Pink & Black Tie Gala, hopefully going to the carnival thing in Central Park, going to see Pippin hopefully soon, and the whole getting ready to move thing is taking up a lot of my outside of work brain power.
Well that will be all for now I guess.
11. I like that I am a quick thinker.
12. I like my generosity.
..meh is that enough? Let's go with yes.
I have discovered though, that as long as I am staying involved and doing different activities outside of work, then I will be a lot happier.
Best friend and I are running a 5k tomorrow, I'm volunteering at ACS's Pink & Black Tie Gala, hopefully going to the carnival thing in Central Park, going to see Pippin hopefully soon, and the whole getting ready to move thing is taking up a lot of my outside of work brain power.
Well that will be all for now I guess.
Monday, June 3, 2013
let the good times roll;
So New Orleans was amazing.
The flights getting there were surprisingly smooth, and then we took the airport shuttle (driven by a SPLENDIDLY accented fellow) to our hotel, where we were checked in by a legit tranny. Or crossdresser. Someone who was clearly a man but wearing makeup and a wig. Troy.
The hotel was beautiful and the beds were comfy and it was great.
We hit the town and got food at the Palace Cafe on Canal St. where I ordered lobster cheesecake and Jenn had this crawfish thing that came with tomatoes and fresh mozarella and had this awesome sauce on it. We both also had beer and then were given complimentary bread pudding which was AMAZING.
Then we walked around the French Quarter, Bourbon St, Jackson Square... met some artists and watched some street performers, browsed some gift shops, and had beignets which were SO GOOD. Did a bit more exploring after that and met some delightful possibly gay dudes who said Jenn's skirt was "very rawr" (so yeah I guess they were definitely gay).
Needless to say, we slept very well that night after all that and the fact that we had left NYC at 4am... lol.
The next day was begun with brunch on a Bourbon Street balcony at Le Bayou. We had the fried alligator appetizer, and then both ordered salads for the main course. Again, super tasty. And I got this coffee/alcohol beverage which was DELISH.
Then we frolicked about.. walked all around the riverfront, looked at boats, did some souvenir shopping, took pictures in a photobooth, ate nachos, lots of frolicking. Oh yeah and we also went over to the Garden District and looked at pretty houses.
That night we went on a ghost tour which was fun but lots of straight up history and not enough GHOST stories for my taste. When I do those I want to be freaked out, not necessarily too informed. lol. But it was interesting and did have its spooky moments! After that we grabbed a late dinner where I had red beans and rice which was DELISH and Jenn got this seafood sampler thingy. And we also both got hurricanes, which is a famous NOLA cocktail. Also delicious. Oh yes and then we went to a bar and Jenn got a hand grenade (a famous, SUPER STRONG cocktail) and I got this one called the Tropical Itch. Good times.
Day 3. We woke up a bit earlier, grabbed breakfast at this place called The Ruby Slipper which was right by our hotel and so so tasty. I had the Florentine Omelet which had mushrooms, spinach, and fresh mozarella. Yum. :)
Then we were off- we went to the St. Louis Cemetery where we received a tour from a rogue cemetery employee who was absolutely not a licensed tour guide.. but he was hilarious and delightful. The gist of his message to us was, "NAWLINS is sinkin' erryday.. we still do burials here erryday, I'll prove it to ya. Let me show ya somethin'."
..So that was fun.
After that we went to the aquarium! I love aquariums so it was a delight. and we got there just in time to see the penguins get fed!
That night we had dinner at Desires Oyster Bar, where I had jambalaya which was delicious, and then we pa-roused Bourbon Street and ended up hanging out at Pat O'Briens courtyard bar for quite a while, just talking and having fun. It was a really great night, and Jenn introduced me to her AMAZING Irish accent. Just drinking hurricanes and bestest friend company! After that, we attempted to go ghost hunting. You see, one of the ghost tour stories featured a ghost named Eloise who hangs out in a schoolyard which used to be a graveyard. It is said that she died of yellow fever at 17 and was buried there.. we took like 50 pictures trying to catch a glimpse, but sadly got nothing.
The next day was plantation tour day! We rode about an hour outside of NOLA to this tiny town where we visited the Oak Alley and Laura plantations. Oak Alley was stunning.. Interview with the Vampire was filmed there! And Laura was really interesting and fun.. and also lovely in its own right!! So that was a fun and informative and very full day. We got back from all that at like 6pm, then found this awesome restaurant called the Gumbo House where I had.. guess what? Gumbo! It was delicious. After that we did some light bar browsing, and eventually ended up at Pat O'Briens again where I had a couple cocktails- the rainstorm and the rainbow! lol. The rainstorm thing was SO GOOD.
One last full day! We woke up pretty early, grabbed Ruby Slipper breakfast (I had Migas which was AMAZING), and took the streetcar out to City Park. We visited the sculpture garden, the great lawn, creeped on the botanical gardens and storyville, and then hit up the art museum! Lots of walking around but all delightful. After heading back into the French Quarter, we grabbed a beignet because I was starving, and then took the shuttle to Mardi Gras World which was SO COOL. We got to try on Mardi Gras outfits and see the warehouse where all the props for the floats are made. It was totally badass.
That night, we decided on dinner at the Royal House and oh my word. Best decision I have ever made, hands down. I got the shrimp creole and it was literally the best thing I have ever eaten. I cannot even explain how good it was. We of course had cocktails as well, and had Bananas Foster cheesecake for dessert. Major food coma.
Then Jenn decided to get a tarot reading which was really fun for me to watch because I've never seen one of those as it happens, so it was cool to like.. see the methodology behind it and such.
For our final night on Bourbon, we went to this other outdoor bar where live jazz was playing and had drinks and took pictures.. it was lovely. A great way to end the trip!!
So, all in all, NOLA was perfect.
And now I want more shrimp creole.
The flights getting there were surprisingly smooth, and then we took the airport shuttle (driven by a SPLENDIDLY accented fellow) to our hotel, where we were checked in by a legit tranny. Or crossdresser. Someone who was clearly a man but wearing makeup and a wig. Troy.
The hotel was beautiful and the beds were comfy and it was great.
We hit the town and got food at the Palace Cafe on Canal St. where I ordered lobster cheesecake and Jenn had this crawfish thing that came with tomatoes and fresh mozarella and had this awesome sauce on it. We both also had beer and then were given complimentary bread pudding which was AMAZING.
Then we walked around the French Quarter, Bourbon St, Jackson Square... met some artists and watched some street performers, browsed some gift shops, and had beignets which were SO GOOD. Did a bit more exploring after that and met some delightful possibly gay dudes who said Jenn's skirt was "very rawr" (so yeah I guess they were definitely gay).
Needless to say, we slept very well that night after all that and the fact that we had left NYC at 4am... lol.
The next day was begun with brunch on a Bourbon Street balcony at Le Bayou. We had the fried alligator appetizer, and then both ordered salads for the main course. Again, super tasty. And I got this coffee/alcohol beverage which was DELISH.
Then we frolicked about.. walked all around the riverfront, looked at boats, did some souvenir shopping, took pictures in a photobooth, ate nachos, lots of frolicking. Oh yeah and we also went over to the Garden District and looked at pretty houses.
That night we went on a ghost tour which was fun but lots of straight up history and not enough GHOST stories for my taste. When I do those I want to be freaked out, not necessarily too informed. lol. But it was interesting and did have its spooky moments! After that we grabbed a late dinner where I had red beans and rice which was DELISH and Jenn got this seafood sampler thingy. And we also both got hurricanes, which is a famous NOLA cocktail. Also delicious. Oh yes and then we went to a bar and Jenn got a hand grenade (a famous, SUPER STRONG cocktail) and I got this one called the Tropical Itch. Good times.
Day 3. We woke up a bit earlier, grabbed breakfast at this place called The Ruby Slipper which was right by our hotel and so so tasty. I had the Florentine Omelet which had mushrooms, spinach, and fresh mozarella. Yum. :)
Then we were off- we went to the St. Louis Cemetery where we received a tour from a rogue cemetery employee who was absolutely not a licensed tour guide.. but he was hilarious and delightful. The gist of his message to us was, "NAWLINS is sinkin' erryday.. we still do burials here erryday, I'll prove it to ya. Let me show ya somethin'."
..So that was fun.
After that we went to the aquarium! I love aquariums so it was a delight. and we got there just in time to see the penguins get fed!
That night we had dinner at Desires Oyster Bar, where I had jambalaya which was delicious, and then we pa-roused Bourbon Street and ended up hanging out at Pat O'Briens courtyard bar for quite a while, just talking and having fun. It was a really great night, and Jenn introduced me to her AMAZING Irish accent. Just drinking hurricanes and bestest friend company! After that, we attempted to go ghost hunting. You see, one of the ghost tour stories featured a ghost named Eloise who hangs out in a schoolyard which used to be a graveyard. It is said that she died of yellow fever at 17 and was buried there.. we took like 50 pictures trying to catch a glimpse, but sadly got nothing.
The next day was plantation tour day! We rode about an hour outside of NOLA to this tiny town where we visited the Oak Alley and Laura plantations. Oak Alley was stunning.. Interview with the Vampire was filmed there! And Laura was really interesting and fun.. and also lovely in its own right!! So that was a fun and informative and very full day. We got back from all that at like 6pm, then found this awesome restaurant called the Gumbo House where I had.. guess what? Gumbo! It was delicious. After that we did some light bar browsing, and eventually ended up at Pat O'Briens again where I had a couple cocktails- the rainstorm and the rainbow! lol. The rainstorm thing was SO GOOD.
One last full day! We woke up pretty early, grabbed Ruby Slipper breakfast (I had Migas which was AMAZING), and took the streetcar out to City Park. We visited the sculpture garden, the great lawn, creeped on the botanical gardens and storyville, and then hit up the art museum! Lots of walking around but all delightful. After heading back into the French Quarter, we grabbed a beignet because I was starving, and then took the shuttle to Mardi Gras World which was SO COOL. We got to try on Mardi Gras outfits and see the warehouse where all the props for the floats are made. It was totally badass.
That night, we decided on dinner at the Royal House and oh my word. Best decision I have ever made, hands down. I got the shrimp creole and it was literally the best thing I have ever eaten. I cannot even explain how good it was. We of course had cocktails as well, and had Bananas Foster cheesecake for dessert. Major food coma.
Then Jenn decided to get a tarot reading which was really fun for me to watch because I've never seen one of those as it happens, so it was cool to like.. see the methodology behind it and such.
For our final night on Bourbon, we went to this other outdoor bar where live jazz was playing and had drinks and took pictures.. it was lovely. A great way to end the trip!!
So, all in all, NOLA was perfect.
And now I want more shrimp creole.
Friday, May 24, 2013
too sweet to last;
Well StarQuest regionals are over for the season and therefore I am A) unemployed and B) have time to blog again.
If you think I was wise and applied to jobs for the past couple months and got a job in preparation for this, well, you'd be wrong.
Yet again I find myself in this situation.
I am going to SQ finals for a week in July but uh.. I would really have like to have some sort of job between now and then. Preferably one that I can get soon that will allow me to have that week off that I can return to post-SQ-week.
I just really have no idea what the hell I want to do with my life. I've had several ideas of course, but I have yet to discover that one thing that makes me excited and also provides me with an income. I know that I would love that thing to have to do with theatre but the issue is getting theatre things to actually provide any sort of useful income. Meh.
Right now, I am just trying to apply to things as much as I can and not worry too much about like.. the future and shit.
In other news, Jenn and I are going to NEW ORLEANS on Saturday and it is going to be KICKASS and I am super stoked. It will be really great to get some time away from everyone (except of course my lovely bff) and be in a hotel and an airport merely for a FUN purpose and not for work. I am so ready for a vacation. And a new facebook album for goodness sake.
Basically nothing else is happening though.. I am really trying to turn over a new leaf and exercise more and eat better and make the most of living in NYC though. There are a ton of things I want to do this summer, like Coney Island, see some shows, see a movie at Bryant Park, go to the Mermaid Parade, go to the Rain Room at the MoMA.. just things like that. I need to make the most of it.
I also really need to start eating healthier.. being on the road was not of assistance for that one bit. SO yeah that might happen. AND I also need to start running more often because Jenn and I are doing the Color Run in September! Huzzah.
But now that's really all.
Its 2am.
Goodnight Catherine, and whoever else might be reading this. :)
If you think I was wise and applied to jobs for the past couple months and got a job in preparation for this, well, you'd be wrong.
Yet again I find myself in this situation.
I am going to SQ finals for a week in July but uh.. I would really have like to have some sort of job between now and then. Preferably one that I can get soon that will allow me to have that week off that I can return to post-SQ-week.
I just really have no idea what the hell I want to do with my life. I've had several ideas of course, but I have yet to discover that one thing that makes me excited and also provides me with an income. I know that I would love that thing to have to do with theatre but the issue is getting theatre things to actually provide any sort of useful income. Meh.
Right now, I am just trying to apply to things as much as I can and not worry too much about like.. the future and shit.
In other news, Jenn and I are going to NEW ORLEANS on Saturday and it is going to be KICKASS and I am super stoked. It will be really great to get some time away from everyone (except of course my lovely bff) and be in a hotel and an airport merely for a FUN purpose and not for work. I am so ready for a vacation. And a new facebook album for goodness sake.
Basically nothing else is happening though.. I am really trying to turn over a new leaf and exercise more and eat better and make the most of living in NYC though. There are a ton of things I want to do this summer, like Coney Island, see some shows, see a movie at Bryant Park, go to the Mermaid Parade, go to the Rain Room at the MoMA.. just things like that. I need to make the most of it.
I also really need to start eating healthier.. being on the road was not of assistance for that one bit. SO yeah that might happen. AND I also need to start running more often because Jenn and I are doing the Color Run in September! Huzzah.
But now that's really all.
Its 2am.
Goodnight Catherine, and whoever else might be reading this. :)
Thursday, March 28, 2013
you make me wanna roll my windows down;
Hey there internet.
I've been taking a break from this blogging thing mostly A) because I am on the road all the time and B) basically nothing has been happening.
My entire life right now is my job pretty much, which is not that bad except for the level of exhaustion it creates is pretty high. I like the job a LOT though, for real. Its super cool, and I really like having responsibilities that are uniquely mine. It makes it fun for me, because its this little "department" (which consists of me and 6 computers and 3 judges) that I get to manage. So its cool.
But I have this weekend off which I am STOKED about. Its so nice to have a break from the incessant traveling and get some time to just live.
Not that I am doing much living.
GUH.
Frustrate.
I am in one of those moods where I want to put on some jean shorts and frolic through the city eating froyo and taking pictures with friends and lay in the grass at sunset and swing on some swings and just do silly fun shit for no reason. Just because I can. Just because I am free and I want to feel free. Unfortunately, no one seems to want to do these things with me and its kind of boring alone. lol. ALSO the weather is still annoyingly cold which is quite a bother. I am just aching for spring, honestly. Spring and summer and beaches and sunshine. And Hoboken.. I cannot wait to go to Hoboken when its pretty out and get a cupcake from Carlo's and sit in the grass by the Hudson and watch the sunset over Manhattan. I could literally sit there for hours.
It really doesn't take much to entertain me.
Anyway.
I have been in a weird mood lately. Like, I am kind of unsure of myself I think. I am getting to the point where I am both happy and sad with what my life is right now. I could not be more thrilled and grateful for the people I have in my life, yet I find myself browsing facebook and looking at people who I don't talk to anymore or people who I wish I talked to and getting nostalgic about things just all these random feels.
I have taken a lot of risks to get here and sometimes I worry that I've taken then in vain and that this will all fall apart.
But I guess that's just how life is.
PS I am obsessed with a country song called Cruise by Florida Georgia Line and I cannot stop listening to it tell no one. .. Its just so good.
I've been taking a break from this blogging thing mostly A) because I am on the road all the time and B) basically nothing has been happening.
My entire life right now is my job pretty much, which is not that bad except for the level of exhaustion it creates is pretty high. I like the job a LOT though, for real. Its super cool, and I really like having responsibilities that are uniquely mine. It makes it fun for me, because its this little "department" (which consists of me and 6 computers and 3 judges) that I get to manage. So its cool.
But I have this weekend off which I am STOKED about. Its so nice to have a break from the incessant traveling and get some time to just live.
Not that I am doing much living.
GUH.
Frustrate.
I am in one of those moods where I want to put on some jean shorts and frolic through the city eating froyo and taking pictures with friends and lay in the grass at sunset and swing on some swings and just do silly fun shit for no reason. Just because I can. Just because I am free and I want to feel free. Unfortunately, no one seems to want to do these things with me and its kind of boring alone. lol. ALSO the weather is still annoyingly cold which is quite a bother. I am just aching for spring, honestly. Spring and summer and beaches and sunshine. And Hoboken.. I cannot wait to go to Hoboken when its pretty out and get a cupcake from Carlo's and sit in the grass by the Hudson and watch the sunset over Manhattan. I could literally sit there for hours.
It really doesn't take much to entertain me.
Anyway.
I have been in a weird mood lately. Like, I am kind of unsure of myself I think. I am getting to the point where I am both happy and sad with what my life is right now. I could not be more thrilled and grateful for the people I have in my life, yet I find myself browsing facebook and looking at people who I don't talk to anymore or people who I wish I talked to and getting nostalgic about things just all these random feels.
I have taken a lot of risks to get here and sometimes I worry that I've taken then in vain and that this will all fall apart.
But I guess that's just how life is.
PS I am obsessed with a country song called Cruise by Florida Georgia Line and I cannot stop listening to it tell no one. .. Its just so good.
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